My life is fading fast
To fuzzy silhouettes and broken gla**
The last thing I remember was
The gap that closed as I crashed into the guardrail
And my frail
And drunken body broke to pieces
Now I'm standing in front of 20,000 flashing tv screens
Flashing memories that feel like dreams
Reliving all the things I wanted
Longing for the things I thought I never got to be
I only ever wanted to feel alive
So I dyed
My handkerchief a different color
And I died
In a terrible car accident
My mother cried and cried
She don't believe I'll be in heaven
She says my lifestyle doesn't please God
But
Oh God where the hell have you been
All of my life my eyes are growing closed
Even though I know I need to keep them open
If I want to get know myself
I need to get to know the world around me
Cause in it I'll learn all I need to know
Before
I dye
My handkerchief a different color
And if I die
In a terrorist attack
Well I sure hope my mom won't cry
I hope she'll smile through the tears
Because through all the years I lived I was never alive
Maybe when I die
I'll find all the answers that I've searched for
All my life and I'll k** the lights and close my eyes