Elephantelephone - Going Home (Fading Fast) lyrics

My life is fading fast To fuzzy silhouettes and broken gla** The last thing I remember was The gap that closed as I crashed into the guardrail And my frail And drunken body broke to pieces Now I'm standing in front of 20,000 flashing tv screens Flashing memories that feel like dreams Reliving all the things I wanted Longing for the things I thought I never got to be I only ever wanted to feel alive So I dyed My handkerchief a different color And I died In a terrible car accident My mother cried and cried She don't believe I'll be in heaven She says my lifestyle doesn't please God But Oh God where the hell have you been All of my life my eyes are growing closed Even though I know I need to keep them open If I want to get know myself I need to get to know the world around me Cause in it I'll learn all I need to know Before I dye My handkerchief a different color And if I die In a terrorist attack Well I sure hope my mom won't cry I hope she'll smile through the tears Because through all the years I lived I was never alive Maybe when I die I'll find all the answers that I've searched for All my life and I'll k** the lights and close my eyes