[Verse 1]
I feel i disappointed you i really let you down/
How could i say i'm sorry i'm so far away now/
And how could you forgive me when your clearly upset/
I just wanna forget i said f** it i up and left/
I'm holding back tears and fears with quick blinks/
I'm hurt and its my fault i don't know what else to think/
I kind of hate myself now though i act friendly/
Bottle after bottle hope i drown in this remy/
I pray late at night but nobody talks back/
And the way i'm seeing life i would have never thought that/
I wanted to be a man but nobody ever showed me/
Middle of the crowd yet and still i feel lonely/
They talk about themselves we don't talk about me/
Still you calling them my friends i don't think they know me/
I aimed for perfection but regretting the results/
I can't even make mistakes they won't let me be myself/
They got me on a pedestal could never have a flaw/
Anything shy of excellence and everyone's appalled/
Everyones pissed its not what they expect/
I sacrifice anything to harbor my respect/
My shoes too big i made them keep growing/
Im 5 foot 9 my ego like a bowing/
When it rains it pours in my world it keeps snowing/
They asking for the directions i can't tell them where i'm going/
I couldn't stop smoking now i can't stop drinking/
Thought i quit last week but got drunk that weekend/
I turned 23, lost my girl that evening/
Time heals all i don't care that we ain't speaking/
I cared about the trust, i cared about the friendship/
Now its all gone now, where can i begin this/
Guess i gotta end this i just need somewhere i can talk/
As i watch the sunset in new york/
[hook]
In new york, new york/
As i watch the sunset in new york/
I'm sorry i'm just venting need somewhere i can talk/
As i watch the sunset in new york/
[Verse 2]
I hope you can forgive me for all that i did/
Life without walls that's how i thought we should live/
Sitting i this cadillac while i flash back/
Like the canon 5D when i rap tracks/
Was counting cash stacks smoking in a dark cellar/
I pray i never go back like your cinderella/
My business partners think i left them like the godfather/
AC meeting who gon' be Joey Za Za/
Told my girl i gotta go i need the cake/
If you can't wait i guess you skate/
But it's like the Corleone told his daughter hugging on her face/
I would burn in hell just to keep you safe/
I would drown in fire lakes so you could swim in the clouds/
Isolated in the flames so you could be in the crowd/
Maybe i'm bugging, maybe i'm just thinking out loud/
None of that matters i lost her i was way too proud/
I had a fall out with my sister she ain't argue with me/
I got drunk started snapping how she smarter than me/
She overheard it, felt deserted/
Her feelings i swore i would never hurt it/
The man in me still needs to be nurtured/
Too many things i did even though i thought was wrong/
Too many moves i went ahead and gave the order on/
I see success but i'm never impressed/
I f** around and die stressed from the greed i possess/
Like bud told gecko on the jack from the cut/
How much money till you up?/
How much yachts is enough?/
The answer is defined by whoever's inclined to find/
Aviators & bombers whatever shines/
Everybody's smiling everybody wants to hug me/
But when the shine's gone will the same people love me/
Sorry i'm just venting need somewhere i could talk/
As i watch the sunset in new york/
[hook]
In new york, new york/
As i watch the sunset in new york/
I'm sorry i'm just venting need somewhere i can talk/
As i watch the sunset in new york/
[Verse 3]
If you could see it from here/
Its never been this clear/
I wish i could take it back and retract all of your tears/
Yea/
Elevator to the penthouse/
Pockets on "F", i still recall pulling let out/
I think i missed that bus/
I need my wrist like the queens suicidal daughter princess cuts/
Uhh/
So every-time i ride through i'm presentable/
For every girl i ever had i'm unforgettable/
Unforgettable they probably feeling miserable/
Life is unpredictable welcome to the pinnacle/
The top, the summit, you want it!/
Ayo we did it, we had it, we run it!/
It was there, it was yours, but you fronted!/
Look, matter-fact f** it/
I feel better counting hundreds.../
I feel better all alone in my throne/
Sipping remy from my crown, typing lines into my phone/
Isolated in my zone been jaded for so long/
Started creating poems my pop was a rolling stone/
Medicated my pain, resurrected the flame/
Looking to find an exit i ended up in the game/
Some of my homey's slain, examples of chasing fame/
The last son, that was the end of his family name/
Seen my homey in prison his eyes reveal the pain/
Look at what we became it's never gon' be the same/
Supposed to see my cousin she planned it for thanksgiving/
They found her dead in her bed a weekend before the visit/
Her and my aunt was beefing this sh** is just out of order/
She rushed them to close the case and ain't even bury her daughter/
They ain't find a clue, no trace, no nothing?/
That type of sh** make me think my aunt k**ed my cousin!/
Sorry i'm just venting need somewhere i can talk/
As i watch the sunset in new york/
[hook]
In new york, new york/
As i watch the sunset in new york/
I'm sorry i'm just venting need somewhere i can talk/
As i watch the sunset in new york/