Dot The One - Sunset In New York lyrics

[Verse 1] I feel i disappointed you i really let you down/ How could i say i'm sorry i'm so far away now/ And how could you forgive me when your clearly upset/ I just wanna forget i said f** it i up and left/ I'm holding back tears and fears with quick blinks/ I'm hurt and its my fault i don't know what else to think/ I kind of hate myself now though i act friendly/ Bottle after bottle hope i drown in this remy/ I pray late at night but nobody talks back/ And the way i'm seeing life i would have never thought that/ I wanted to be a man but nobody ever showed me/ Middle of the crowd yet and still i feel lonely/ They talk about themselves we don't talk about me/ Still you calling them my friends i don't think they know me/ I aimed for perfection but regretting the results/ I can't even make mistakes they won't let me be myself/ They got me on a pedestal could never have a flaw/ Anything shy of excellence and everyone's appalled/ Everyones pissed its not what they expect/ I sacrifice anything to harbor my respect/ My shoes too big i made them keep growing/ Im 5 foot 9 my ego like a bowing/ When it rains it pours in my world it keeps snowing/ They asking for the directions i can't tell them where i'm going/ I couldn't stop smoking now i can't stop drinking/ Thought i quit last week but got drunk that weekend/ I turned 23, lost my girl that evening/ Time heals all i don't care that we ain't speaking/ I cared about the trust, i cared about the friendship/ Now its all gone now, where can i begin this/ Guess i gotta end this i just need somewhere i can talk/ As i watch the sunset in new york/ [hook] In new york, new york/ As i watch the sunset in new york/ I'm sorry i'm just venting need somewhere i can talk/ As i watch the sunset in new york/ [Verse 2] I hope you can forgive me for all that i did/ Life without walls that's how i thought we should live/ Sitting i this cadillac while i flash back/ Like the canon 5D when i rap tracks/ Was counting cash stacks smoking in a dark cellar/ I pray i never go back like your cinderella/ My business partners think i left them like the godfather/ AC meeting who gon' be Joey Za Za/ Told my girl i gotta go i need the cake/ If you can't wait i guess you skate/ But it's like the Corleone told his daughter hugging on her face/ I would burn in hell just to keep you safe/ I would drown in fire lakes so you could swim in the clouds/ Isolated in the flames so you could be in the crowd/ Maybe i'm bugging, maybe i'm just thinking out loud/ None of that matters i lost her i was way too proud/ I had a fall out with my sister she ain't argue with me/ I got drunk started snapping how she smarter than me/ She overheard it, felt deserted/ Her feelings i swore i would never hurt it/ The man in me still needs to be nurtured/ Too many things i did even though i thought was wrong/ Too many moves i went ahead and gave the order on/ I see success but i'm never impressed/ I f** around and die stressed from the greed i possess/ Like bud told gecko on the jack from the cut/ How much money till you up?/ How much yachts is enough?/ The answer is defined by whoever's inclined to find/ Aviators & bombers whatever shines/ Everybody's smiling everybody wants to hug me/ But when the shine's gone will the same people love me/ Sorry i'm just venting need somewhere i could talk/ As i watch the sunset in new york/ [hook] In new york, new york/ As i watch the sunset in new york/ I'm sorry i'm just venting need somewhere i can talk/ As i watch the sunset in new york/ [Verse 3] If you could see it from here/ Its never been this clear/ I wish i could take it back and retract all of your tears/ Yea/ Elevator to the penthouse/ Pockets on "F", i still recall pulling let out/ I think i missed that bus/ I need my wrist like the queens suicidal daughter princess cuts/ Uhh/ So every-time i ride through i'm presentable/ For every girl i ever had i'm unforgettable/ Unforgettable they probably feeling miserable/ Life is unpredictable welcome to the pinnacle/ The top, the summit, you want it!/ Ayo we did it, we had it, we run it!/ It was there, it was yours, but you fronted!/ Look, matter-fact f** it/ I feel better counting hundreds.../ I feel better all alone in my throne/ Sipping remy from my crown, typing lines into my phone/ Isolated in my zone been jaded for so long/ Started creating poems my pop was a rolling stone/ Medicated my pain, resurrected the flame/ Looking to find an exit i ended up in the game/ Some of my homey's slain, examples of chasing fame/ The last son, that was the end of his family name/ Seen my homey in prison his eyes reveal the pain/ Look at what we became it's never gon' be the same/ Supposed to see my cousin she planned it for thanksgiving/ They found her dead in her bed a weekend before the visit/ Her and my aunt was beefing this sh** is just out of order/ She rushed them to close the case and ain't even bury her daughter/ They ain't find a clue, no trace, no nothing?/ That type of sh** make me think my aunt k**ed my cousin!/ Sorry i'm just venting need somewhere i can talk/ As i watch the sunset in new york/ [hook] In new york, new york/ As i watch the sunset in new york/ I'm sorry i'm just venting need somewhere i can talk/ As i watch the sunset in new york/