[Verse 1]
I hide my feelin's just to show how cold hearted I am
So when that I tell you that I love you, you think I be lyin'
But this is real, you came in my life perfect timin'
Thought I was ready, knew I had it down to a science
He was from the west side, I was from the north
Stay with him every night so I was back and forth
Came in undecided, I just took a course
Didn't wanna fall in love, it was an act to force
It was lick first grade again, we was always stayin' in
Never hated on me, I was somethin' like his favorite
About to start a life, we was talkin' and debatin' it
Told me I'm the only girl he wanna have a baby with
Man, I love it when he say that sh**
Love it when I'm with him, always made me feel safe and sh**
Thought it was illusional, maybe it was
But that's what happens when I feel and think I'm in love
[Hook]
That is why I always pa** 'cause the love never last long enough
And the feelin's almost never strong enough
I'm givin' up, but I don't think I had enough
It's like a drug, man, this love sh** is rough
And I'm just so scared to love, to love
And I'm just so scared to love, to love
[Verse 2]
He said he believe in us, he don't belivin' in me
He said I act like a thug, I said that's the G in me
He said I know that it's hard but you can lower your guard
I said I'm not f**in' with you but I'll be over tomorrow
I was cookin' and cleanin', I was creatin' a buzz
I was thinkin' 'bout him, forgettin' I was the star
Thought he was chasin' the sack, I had the wrong with the bud
On some real DMX sh**, that was my dog
I won't fall, this ain't no diamond in no effect
I go right back to the track, lose it all and get it back
I was never into that, you wanna leave, you can step
I'm so high up on the jet, I'll forget you ever left
I'll forget you ever dip, I will grind on some sh**
If God forgives sin, I will even leave here rich
So expect me to win, in exception with no sin
And if we ever meet again
[Hook]
That is why I always pa** 'cause the love never last long enough
And the feelin's almost never strong enough
I'm givin' up, but I don't think I had enough
It's like a drug, man, this love sh** is rough
And I'm just so scared to love, to love
And I'm just so scared to love, to love