[Intro]
In life, I just seem to be down more than happy
I recently lost a gran, I just don't even know who I am now
I'm afraid one day that I'll wake up as a different person
Just wake up not known who I am anymore
When I look into the mirror all I see is this person
[Verse 1]
I sometimes think what is life worth living for
I sometimes wanna just end it, just fall on the floor
Put a knife through me, ain't I gonna be good if I rap more
Yeah I'm legit, I ain't some kind of person who does this sh** just for fun
I do it as a job, a profession til my life is done
I just hate how I'm living my life
Gettin' closer to the f**in' damn knife
Gettin' told I ain't good, it's f**in' school all over again
I just wanna be the person I wanna be, not the laughin' stock of Rap Genius
I'm just a crapper who is in f**in' pieces
I feel like I'm another f**in' species
I ain't done with this sh** yet, I ain't gonna give up
I've tried and yet I've always came back up
f** this, I ain't gonna give up tryin' to be famous
I'm just a lonely kid who is just f**in' thinkin' to end it
[Hook]
There's nothing for me as I fade
There's nothing for me but a sharp razor blade
There's nothing for me to live for, I ain't gettin' payed
Nothing for me as I fade, as I fade, as I fade
I sometimes think no one ever cares about me
Puttin' me down low and makin' me feel f**in' sh**
[Verse 2]
What in the f** am I gonna do
I've got nothin' else poppin' up in my mind
Rewind life with a time machine and just watch my life go forward
I don't wanna live this life no more, I just hate how this sh** is just buggin' me
The sh** I've been through, bein' depressed and acting like I'm 2
How in the hell on earth am I gonna survive in this big world
Man, what am I gotta do?
Sittin' in my room all day, I hardly see the outside world
Maybe if I go to the shops or a bar, but that's all
I consider myself lonely yo
Is life worth living, tell me that
All the bullyin' I've suffered, all the hate that I got
I thought I was gonna just laugh it out but I'm startin' to be my old self
Punching walls at the one least f**in' comment
Giving myself worse than Hell torment
[Hook]
There's nothing for me as I fade
There's nothing for me but a sharp razor blade
There's nothing for me to live for, I ain't gettin' payed
Nothing for me as I fade, as I fade, as I fade
I sometimes think no one ever cares about me
Puttin' me down low and makin' me feel f**in' sh**
[Verse 3]
Writin' a rap, I get writer's block
Yeah, I made a song about that, but it got an outburst of dislikes
Felt like I was sittin' on sharp spikes
Feelin' so insecure, I got f**in' slight autism
My life ain't as good as I want it to be
f** this, am I a big baby
I cry like one, that's for sure
f** this ya'll, I need something to make me so secure
If that's possible, one day I could be found dead and get rushed to hospital
[Outro]
I just don't know where I am most of the times now
I've just wonder if my life is gonna get better
I just don't even know what life is, what life is about
Why I have it, why I'm living it
I just sometimes thinkin' that my life is gonna fade