Ceeingee - Fade lyrics

[Intro] In life, I just seem to be down more than happy I recently lost a gran, I just don't even know who I am now I'm afraid one day that I'll wake up as a different person Just wake up not known who I am anymore When I look into the mirror all I see is this person [Verse 1] I sometimes think what is life worth living for I sometimes wanna just end it, just fall on the floor Put a knife through me, ain't I gonna be good if I rap more Yeah I'm legit, I ain't some kind of person who does this sh** just for fun I do it as a job, a profession til my life is done I just hate how I'm living my life Gettin' closer to the f**in' damn knife Gettin' told I ain't good, it's f**in' school all over again I just wanna be the person I wanna be, not the laughin' stock of Rap Genius I'm just a crapper who is in f**in' pieces I feel like I'm another f**in' species I ain't done with this sh** yet, I ain't gonna give up I've tried and yet I've always came back up f** this, I ain't gonna give up tryin' to be famous I'm just a lonely kid who is just f**in' thinkin' to end it [Hook] There's nothing for me as I fade There's nothing for me but a sharp razor blade There's nothing for me to live for, I ain't gettin' payed Nothing for me as I fade, as I fade, as I fade I sometimes think no one ever cares about me Puttin' me down low and makin' me feel f**in' sh** [Verse 2] What in the f** am I gonna do I've got nothin' else poppin' up in my mind Rewind life with a time machine and just watch my life go forward I don't wanna live this life no more, I just hate how this sh** is just buggin' me The sh** I've been through, bein' depressed and acting like I'm 2 How in the hell on earth am I gonna survive in this big world Man, what am I gotta do? Sittin' in my room all day, I hardly see the outside world Maybe if I go to the shops or a bar, but that's all I consider myself lonely yo Is life worth living, tell me that All the bullyin' I've suffered, all the hate that I got I thought I was gonna just laugh it out but I'm startin' to be my old self Punching walls at the one least f**in' comment Giving myself worse than Hell torment [Hook] There's nothing for me as I fade There's nothing for me but a sharp razor blade There's nothing for me to live for, I ain't gettin' payed Nothing for me as I fade, as I fade, as I fade I sometimes think no one ever cares about me Puttin' me down low and makin' me feel f**in' sh** [Verse 3] Writin' a rap, I get writer's block Yeah, I made a song about that, but it got an outburst of dislikes Felt like I was sittin' on sharp spikes Feelin' so insecure, I got f**in' slight autism My life ain't as good as I want it to be f** this, am I a big baby I cry like one, that's for sure f** this ya'll, I need something to make me so secure If that's possible, one day I could be found dead and get rushed to hospital [Outro] I just don't know where I am most of the times now I've just wonder if my life is gonna get better I just don't even know what life is, what life is about Why I have it, why I'm living it I just sometimes thinkin' that my life is gonna fade