I aged by days on afternoons behind those shades
In a darkened room my body lay, tumours blooming in my brain
I am consumed by an unfulfilling sadness
Not even misery loves me
I am alone, and I'm afraid that I always will be
My mother knows that I am sick
But I hate that she can't understand
That whilst I am grateful for her love
It won't stop the shaking of my hands
I can't apologise enough, I live a life devoid of love
And I always thought I could escape this
The silence would help me to sleep
I found no bliss in my ignorance
I found no love where you said it would be
[x2]
No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me
Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak
I sleep with discontent, sorrow creeps around my neck
And I fear that I may choke to d**h
Your name still hangs in every note
And I've tried to fumigate my throat
Just as together, as we were alone
[x2]
No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me
Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak