I aged by days on afternoons behind those shades In a darkened room my body lay, tumours blooming in my brain I am consumed by an unfulfilling sadness Not even misery loves me I am alone, and I'm afraid that I always will be My mother knows that I am sick But I hate that she can't understand That whilst I am grateful for her love It won't stop the shaking of my hands I can't apologise enough, I live a life devoid of love And I always thought I could escape this The silence would help me to sleep I found no bliss in my ignorance I found no love where you said it would be [x2] No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak I sleep with discontent, sorrow creeps around my neck And I fear that I may choke to d**h Your name still hangs in every note And I've tried to fumigate my throat Just as together, as we were alone [x2] No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak