[Verse]
Tell me what I gotta do, somebody show me a sign
Cause I've been lying every single time I told you I'm fine
I swear if you could only see the things that go through my mind
It's kinda hard to paint a picture you could show to the blind
I make this paper and a pen display the state that I'm in
I can't answer when you call this sh** ain't making no sense
Like how these bottles and these d** been replacing my friends
I'm blocking every thing out with double gates and a fence
I wanna die soon... and I don't care how it sounds
Cause every time I talk to God it's like my prayers never found
It's been a long time since I knew my parents we're proud
Their baby boy lost his way inside this merry go round
Just know I tried tho, I hope it's counting for something
I put my life into this music but amounted to nothing
I'm talking every f**ing thing I got counting my soul
Outta control, swear my studio been down in a dungeon
This sh** crazy right? That's just saying the least
And if you going through the same you feel my pain in these beats
I don't even know this girls name laying in my sheets
I'm on the go where I live I'm only staying for weeks
I got a bottle to my left and prescriptions on the right
Haven't slept in days my brain putting up a fight
Found peace in the dark I stay running from the light
I been lost inside my mind there ain't nothing in sight
Tell me why I see your face in every girl I f** now
Running from your love like I'm rushing for a touchdown
Never catching feelings I'm in love with these d** now
When I finally got you everything we had I shut down
...and I know that it's wrong
But where the f** was you then when I wrote all these songs ?
Back when I really loved you and you strolled me along
All of a sudden I'm the one because you noticed I'm on ?
I got no time, this who you made me to be
What goes around comes around just wait and you'll see
It's kinda funny how you lonely now thinking of me
Cause all those years that I waited you created a beast
I gotta thank you, I ain't been played in a while
I just make it through my day to day faking a smile
You give somebody an inch they bout to take it for miles
So when it comes down to friends you better think who you dial
It's all good though, I think I finally figured it out
I was lost for the longest but I'm switching the route
When I think about the future sh** be tripping me out
Didn't think that I would make it I'm forgetting the doubt
[Outro]
I'm on my lonesome, I did it on my lonely
I ain't worried bout opinions you don't even know me
Got the Henny and the addy's and the perky's on me
Even if I die tonight a legend what I'm gon' be
Tell me what you don't see baby I'ma leave the lights on
Drunk and alone the best way for me to write songs
No you can't stay I'll be working till the nights gone
Know somebody praying cause I know I'm living life wrong
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