Since ‘91 I been a menace, for real
Born rotten and exposed
The rose in a garden full of hoes
A flowerbed of souls
Where the flowers never learn
They can go, they can grow, they can
They can be something
I’m a bird, I’m a bird, look at me frontin’
Be confused and obtused, gotta mean some
I don’t feel, I don’t feel, I don’t mean nothing
Mama looking around, what you gotta say
You probably never gave a f** about me anyway
I know I’m foolish cause I love you with my whole soul
But I keep running so I ain’t gotta to go home, I don’t wanna go home
Running from the fire and my brain’s in my ozone
Running from the pressure ‘til I cave in my own home
You don’t understand the obsessions that I got
I need love, I don’t feel that sh** a lot, n***a
Been alone from the motherf**ing jump, man
Every battle, every hurdle, every hump, man
b**hes like to feel it or they motherf**ing don’t, man
Tell em draw a line and do the motherf**ing shhh
Man, listen, I don’t talk about myself, oh no
You don’t get it, you don’t feel it, n***a, oh no
Where I’m from is a nightmare not a smoke show
n***as never make it there, they never make it, oh no, n***a it’s up
I’m from the generation that is scarred and abused
For real, man
You’re either dead or you’re dying or you doomed
And what’s worse is nobody’s got a clue
Of what the f** that I go through in my brain
That there’s a f**ing beast off the motherf**ing chain
That I’ve been having dragons and my heart be in flames
Til I’m broken and too vulnerable again
Love, nobody ever showed me what it was, my n***a, for real
I’ve been beggin' since a youngin', since a cub, my n***a, for real
Saw into your pretty blue soul like the rainbow
A third eye, saw your devil in your angel
We tried to love each other from a different angle
Unfortunately, we still got strangled
I don’t even know if "I'ma make it to the next day"
Every day I wake up and it feels like it’s my d**h day
You can see inside me like a motherf**ing x-ray
Losing to my demons in a motherf**ing chest game
It’s a hard life, I choose to lead the memories so lucidly and
I’m just speaking truthfully, it’s hard to breathe, it’s hard to breathe
Damn