It's time to snuff this torch of yours
I've held on for far too long
Let the embers fade and pa**
Red with fury into a spectral haze
Memories and dreams burn thin
Turned to ash and spread like your final wish
My life commemorates your past tense
Yet this light I call my own
No longer leads that path
Foot in mouth instead of tail
Chewed like the fool until there's no way left to stand
No longer claiming ruined flesh
Just wasted time in wasted skin
Wasted namesake to pa** mental disease
Afraid to exist
So exhausted from hiding
Disbelief in make believe
Nothing more than the best and worse for you
We darken the sun with ouroboros eclipse
I wear this crest now instead of Kerr
In hindsight I've always been the black son
The singularity of this black hole
Night skies over nothingness
Stardust lost to emptiness
I lived hell for both of you
Bound by blood and bone
Wearing abuse that's not my own
These tides crashed over all our lives making waves in twilight
Our lives can't cross anymore
Yet we both expire all the same
In the same space. At the same time
Traverse particles in dark matter collide
Not gla** houses but a hall of mirrors is where I dwell
With every crack I die and then born again
So many versions of this pain within these panes
All staring back and all f**ing the same
Words dispelled and curses lifted
Only I can haunt myself with memories that don't die
These memories a loop in which I dwell
This disappointed youth in which I fell
This sadness is a loop in which I dwell
Until that loop tightens to end this hell