Let's bring it back, back to 2009
13 years old, identity crisis was prime
Learned to play piano all by myself, that's real though
Took my dad's Gibson guitar out of the attic
I absorbed it, I attacked it
But rock wasn't really my thing
I enjoyed spitting bars
So once I started, I couldn't stop
And trap beats starting replacing my guitars
Kept it all to myself, cause who would understand?
I was a young white girl making raps on Garageband
I rapped about whatever, mostly about everyday things
And then I started rapping about boys who were confusing me
Just me and my computer, every damn night
Never planned on getting famous from it
It was just something that felt right
Writing about real life, sometimes writing out of spite
It didn't matter, it made me feel better
Everything was personal, every word I meant
Always wrote about things that made sense
Never beat around the bush, always spoke the truth
If you broke my heart, everyone would know you
That's why all my songs are controversial
Cause they're personal
They're personal
Everything is personal
I may only be 18, but a lot of things have affected me
Things that people can relate to, and others people wouldn't understand
But I believe that everything happens according to God's plan
I was raised in the church, came from a good family in the ‘burbs
Everything that I was taught is still inside of me
But something's begging to be set free, something that needs to be released
And I gotta start living, gotta start making some decisions
Sitting down at 2 am, writing about you, writing about him
Writing about life, writing out of spite
Writing about the thoughts that keep me up at night
Right now all the things that have affected me
For the better, or badly
Either way I'll talk about it gladly
Cause life is full of up and downs, sometimes people don't stick around
And you gotta talk about how you feel, that's how I deal
Everything was personal, every word I meant
Always wrote about things that made sense
Never beat around the bush, always spoke the truth
If you broke my heart, everyone would know you
That's why all my songs are controversial
Cause they're personal
They're personal
Everything is personal
"I mean, I'm sorry you feel that way, but I'm not sorry I wrote it...I think that, you know, when people go things that...sometimes the only way you can really express how you feel is through music...and, that's how I deal with it, so....I'm sorry but I'm really not...”
Everything was personal, every word I meant
Always wrote about things that made sense
Never beat around the bush, always spoke the truth
If you broke my heart, everyone would know you
That's why all my songs are controversial
Cause they're personal
They're personal
Everything is personal