Alexis - Personal lyrics

Let's bring it back, back to 2009 13 years old, identity crisis was prime Learned to play piano all by myself, that's real though Took my dad's Gibson guitar out of the attic I absorbed it, I attacked it But rock wasn't really my thing I enjoyed spitting bars So once I started, I couldn't stop And trap beats starting replacing my guitars Kept it all to myself, cause who would understand? I was a young white girl making raps on Garageband I rapped about whatever, mostly about everyday things And then I started rapping about boys who were confusing me Just me and my computer, every damn night Never planned on getting famous from it It was just something that felt right Writing about real life, sometimes writing out of spite It didn't matter, it made me feel better Everything was personal, every word I meant Always wrote about things that made sense Never beat around the bush, always spoke the truth If you broke my heart, everyone would know you That's why all my songs are controversial Cause they're personal They're personal Everything is personal I may only be 18, but a lot of things have affected me Things that people can relate to, and others people wouldn't understand But I believe that everything happens according to God's plan I was raised in the church, came from a good family in the ‘burbs Everything that I was taught is still inside of me But something's begging to be set free, something that needs to be released And I gotta start living, gotta start making some decisions Sitting down at 2 am, writing about you, writing about him Writing about life, writing out of spite Writing about the thoughts that keep me up at night Right now all the things that have affected me For the better, or badly Either way I'll talk about it gladly Cause life is full of up and downs, sometimes people don't stick around And you gotta talk about how you feel, that's how I deal Everything was personal, every word I meant Always wrote about things that made sense Never beat around the bush, always spoke the truth If you broke my heart, everyone would know you That's why all my songs are controversial Cause they're personal They're personal Everything is personal "I mean, I'm sorry you feel that way, but I'm not sorry I wrote it...I think that, you know, when people go things that...sometimes the only way you can really express how you feel is through music...and, that's how I deal with it, so....I'm sorry but I'm really not...” Everything was personal, every word I meant Always wrote about things that made sense Never beat around the bush, always spoke the truth If you broke my heart, everyone would know you That's why all my songs are controversial Cause they're personal They're personal Everything is personal