[Verse 1: Abscaand]
If you want to find out what I'm 'bout, listen to me spitting, you'll find out
Look into this brain and you'll find out, inside is just lyrics and my doubt
Why even try to hide it? Most of my life is just me in autopilot
Just going through the motions, hoping no one notices the negative emotions
Hope that you know that I don't know how to cope with this monachopsis
Know that, while I'm flowing, the thought of me going makes me sick, rubatosis
Which makes me want that novacaine like Green Day, free me, liberosis
Walking around like a cold corpse that's numb to the world, call that abiosis
I need a moment of Énouement, show the stage, and I'm on it
Filled with rage, my opponent, that is me, and I know it
Inner me, enemy, hard to say, and I know this
Label say, "Come with me and get paid" here's the mixtape
[Verse 2: Abscaand]
Now, my mixtape, like my life, is brought to the light to be scrutinized
By these record executives that don't get it
Whatever the verdict is, I'll stay committed
You heard it from me first, I'm never quitting
I do this music with a purpose, I've got to admit
That I can be fragile at times, but that would be an understatement
Nothing compares to the feeling that you're hated, underrated, or just plain ignored
When you really want to make it, so you pour your soul into this art form that keeps your heart warm
Got me thinking maybe I should've listened to Akademiks and just pushed independent
Inspired by rappers like Tech and Futuristic that went out to get it themselves but
(It's too late now) cause I'm in this chair now, can't back down
Putting on this extra layer of skin and getting ready for whatever they have to say now
Just know that I don't play around with this music
Sincerely yours, the sound of the underground
[Verse 3: Abscaand]
Hello, Abscaand, we're glad that you could make it today
I know you've been waiting for our decision, so I just wanted to say
That there's nothing for you to be afraid of, calm down, OK?
Anyway, after close consideration of the musical direction that you're taking
We just need for you to make some changes (stop)
You really must be crazy if you think I'm gonna let the time that I spent soaking in the game go to waste
You can just drop (drop dead)
Putting away all the hours that I spent, trying to make my verses more powerful
How would you feel if I told you that you could just (hop)
In a pit of fire, in a pit of fire
Day I let you change me, that'll be the day that I retire, which will never happen
That'll be the day that I no longer suffer from the mauerbauertraurigkeit that's inside of me
That'll be the day that the NRA puts their guns down