Abscaand - Fragile lyrics

[Verse 1: Abscaand] If you want to find out what I'm 'bout, listen to me spitting, you'll find out Look into this brain and you'll find out, inside is just lyrics and my doubt Why even try to hide it? Most of my life is just me in autopilot Just going through the motions, hoping no one notices the negative emotions Hope that you know that I don't know how to cope with this monachopsis Know that, while I'm flowing, the thought of me going makes me sick, rubatosis Which makes me want that novacaine like Green Day, free me, liberosis Walking around like a cold corpse that's numb to the world, call that abiosis I need a moment of Énouement, show the stage, and I'm on it Filled with rage, my opponent, that is me, and I know it Inner me, enemy, hard to say, and I know this Label say, "Come with me and get paid" here's the mixtape [Verse 2: Abscaand] Now, my mixtape, like my life, is brought to the light to be scrutinized By these record executives that don't get it Whatever the verdict is, I'll stay committed You heard it from me first, I'm never quitting I do this music with a purpose, I've got to admit That I can be fragile at times, but that would be an understatement Nothing compares to the feeling that you're hated, underrated, or just plain ignored When you really want to make it, so you pour your soul into this art form that keeps your heart warm Got me thinking maybe I should've listened to Akademiks and just pushed independent Inspired by rappers like Tech and Futuristic that went out to get it themselves but (It's too late now) cause I'm in this chair now, can't back down Putting on this extra layer of skin and getting ready for whatever they have to say now Just know that I don't play around with this music Sincerely yours, the sound of the underground [Verse 3: Abscaand] Hello, Abscaand, we're glad that you could make it today I know you've been waiting for our decision, so I just wanted to say That there's nothing for you to be afraid of, calm down, OK? Anyway, after close consideration of the musical direction that you're taking We just need for you to make some changes (stop) You really must be crazy if you think I'm gonna let the time that I spent soaking in the game go to waste You can just drop (drop dead) Putting away all the hours that I spent, trying to make my verses more powerful How would you feel if I told you that you could just (hop) In a pit of fire, in a pit of fire Day I let you change me, that'll be the day that I retire, which will never happen That'll be the day that I no longer suffer from the mauerbauertraurigkeit that's inside of me That'll be the day that the NRA puts their guns down