Verse 1:
Damn what they say I'm the sh**
I came into too many lives
On some negative sh**
Bad influence
Friends parents hated me sh**
Can't mistake
Mom brazy as sh**
White boy, black gang member
Remember that
I put in double the work
For half of the strips
Heard OG's
But I laughed at advice
I had enemies emotionally after my life
Looking back now that road is a dead end
And if you saw my face
Felt the pain of a dead friend
If you fronted me
And never of paid
If you just plain lucky
I didn't get a grenade
Saying f** you A-Wax
I deserve worse
Felt as if my life was almost over like a 3rd verse
Early on when Doc was gone
Wax brought heat to grocery shopping with mom
Yeah that serious enemies then
And when past red to blue
Had him thinking revenge
Been 12 years but the beef is still fresh
Out of state prison and breathing
And I feel blessed
Son growing so fast
It was hard starting a family
Knowing my past
Hoping every one of these days
Won't be the last one
Barely meeting Boo I ain't even saw no cash come
Do I even deserve cash?
I don't want to answer that
Know that I'm heard pa**
How I once thought murder was wrong
Now cops point at Jody like look there goes that murderers mom
Lord knows I f**ed up
Fully aware what was down and whats up
Yeah, I'm accepting the blame
Should of got right with God
Instead of getting a name
[Verse 2]
Look, I'm thinking real selfish reverend
Probably know more people down in Hell than Heaven
Love them all how I'm feeling is torn
Hoping for a Halo without feeling for horns
So concerned for survival
Probably read more Source magazines then Bibles
I'll be honest I didn't like what I read
And some parts other parts I like what it said
Parts about forgiveness power of faith
And in the pocket of my shirt found the powder I waist
Going down the same road I been on
Lived so wrong
That I don't want to live wrong
Been locked up filled with consensus
All fun and games
Until your friend in your arms dead
Until your mans on the stand in court
One thing about life
Is that its damn sure short