Yeah, Look, Can you keep a secret dude?
We'll keep this sh**, between me and you
I've only ever told one person, my girlfriend
So i thought i'd go and let the world in
Look, brother I love ya'
But we're a health risk
Using false wings to escape where no-one else lives
We can't help this
But I'm making myself sick
At how you and I are always making ourselves sick
It's like the d** are the only thing that'll help this
Really it's that sh** in our past we haven't dealt with
I'm scared if it was something I dealt with
I'd be in a cell, I'd have my arm where the belt is
Cause i'd find where that motherf**ers house is
Ask where he got the cards in a hand that he dealt us
And yo I'm sorry if that's selfish
I just ain't afraid to say the sh** that no-one else is
Ever since a kid I felt this way
The black sheep, I can never rid myself of hate
And some will say its a mental disease
Well I just pray that I can make it to the end of the week
Its like I'll only find happiness when I'm dead or asleep
They say in time it'll get better for me, but it forever repeats
Its like I'm on the search to find my inner peace
And the fact I know its never there is k**ing me
And i'll be honest I'm trying to make it work
Its all that I can think about but it's likely to make it worse and it hurts
Am I positive, no, I just wanted to go
Its like I'm trapped in my mind and I'm not letting go
They try to help me but I won't let them touch me
Until you've been in my shoes don't ever judge me
The only thing that ever seems to excite me is the thought of leaving this life
It's the demon inside me
It screams to release and it needs to be leaving
I make myself bleed just to see him
Don't be scared it doesn't hurt while I bleed
I live in hell, if you go in search you'll find me
I don't think this world and this earth's what I need
And I don't think this place is for a person like me
Is that really such a bad thing?
And people always point fingers but really don't understand him
I need to chill I wanna leave here, serious I'm being real I don't wanna be here
Period
Hey yo f** it my life's hell I hate it
99% of my life's dealt with anger
See I just wanna get a shotty, go and end it properly
Doing everybody and myself a favour
And they say that your life's what you make it
I didn't ask for my own life, But I'll take it