360 - By All Means I'm Closer lyrics

Yeah, Look, Can you keep a secret dude? We'll keep this sh**, between me and you I've only ever told one person, my girlfriend So i thought i'd go and let the world in Look, brother I love ya' But we're a health risk Using false wings to escape where no-one else lives We can't help this But I'm making myself sick At how you and I are always making ourselves sick It's like the d** are the only thing that'll help this Really it's that sh** in our past we haven't dealt with I'm scared if it was something I dealt with I'd be in a cell, I'd have my arm where the belt is Cause i'd find where that motherf**ers house is Ask where he got the cards in a hand that he dealt us And yo I'm sorry if that's selfish I just ain't afraid to say the sh** that no-one else is Ever since a kid I felt this way The black sheep, I can never rid myself of hate And some will say its a mental disease Well I just pray that I can make it to the end of the week Its like I'll only find happiness when I'm dead or asleep They say in time it'll get better for me, but it forever repeats Its like I'm on the search to find my inner peace And the fact I know its never there is k**ing me And i'll be honest I'm trying to make it work Its all that I can think about but it's likely to make it worse and it hurts Am I positive, no, I just wanted to go Its like I'm trapped in my mind and I'm not letting go They try to help me but I won't let them touch me Until you've been in my shoes don't ever judge me The only thing that ever seems to excite me is the thought of leaving this life It's the demon inside me It screams to release and it needs to be leaving I make myself bleed just to see him Don't be scared it doesn't hurt while I bleed I live in hell, if you go in search you'll find me I don't think this world and this earth's what I need And I don't think this place is for a person like me Is that really such a bad thing? And people always point fingers but really don't understand him I need to chill I wanna leave here, serious I'm being real I don't wanna be here Period Hey yo f** it my life's hell I hate it 99% of my life's dealt with anger See I just wanna get a shotty, go and end it properly Doing everybody and myself a favour And they say that your life's what you make it I didn't ask for my own life, But I'll take it