[Produced by TYLR]
I've been feeling
So monotonous
In this world
We're never anonymous
They see my thoughts
They're disgusted in me
They're discussing me
They wanna lock me away
I wanna be far away
They tried to k** me, I swear
I write but the words won't come out
I'm right here but they don't see me, wow
I think I'm stuck in a TV show
Cause the cruel irony, I can see
I tried to iron my face
I tried to take a chemical bullet
They stopped me but they wished they hadn't
Full of self-loathing and hate
I'm boring
I'm broken
A record that keeps on going
A record that keeps showing its cracks
To the world
I'm boring
That's why they all left
This subject matter's repetitive
Why can't you get dressed?
Why can't you get out of that bed?
Why can't you get better?
This sh**'s all in your head
Attention disorder
It's probably just boredom
Then explain the voices
(Then explain the voices)
My therapist thinks I'm crazy
My therapist f**ing hates me
She told me to leave
I left
I shouldn't have
I'm depressed
I sent out a distress call
UFO came
Had a strange message
Handed me some pot and rolling papers
Told me
Smoke this
And you'll get better
Then I got better
Then I got worse
Wrote a song about it
Then I lost it
I mean I lost it
I went crazy
My sh**'s everywhere
Why the f** you hate me
Why the f** you love me
My mind is breaking
Heart is breaking
Can't take this no more
Everyone I love
Just wants to go off
And do their own sh**
Someone think of me man
I just want some love, sh**
(I just want some love, sh**)
I'm so selfish
I'm so helpless
History will forget me
And everyone will forget me
Then they'll be happy
(f**)
I miss him
But man it's way too stressful
To keep thinking
About it
I sent him a message
He read it
He didn't reply
Story of my f**ing life
Way too sad to cry
I think I'm gonna die
(I think I'm gonna die, hey)
Yeah
[Freestyle]
So, like
I try my best
And everywhere I go, like
I'm too stressed
Cause, I don't know who I am anymore
See
I made a mixtape
Didn't feel great
Everything about my life is just so sh**
Right Now
I don't know why I'm gonna fly now
I don't know how I'm so high now
Tryna channel my emotions
So I can be the best
They don't want me
They gave me some tests
They don't work
Like
I don't know where I'm going with this
Where am I heading
Motherf**er, I just settle with it
This life is so crazy
I think they all hate me
I think that I hate me
But I don't understand
Sometimes I think I'm a split personality
Cause one time I'm-
One
One minute I'm depressed
Another minute
I'm manic
I don't even know what I'm doing
I'm like
I tried to listen to Illmatic
I didn't get it
Maybe I'm not that smart
I got a headache
Maybe I'm not that great
I gotta said it
Maybe I just gotta say my truths
Maybe I just gotta tell you what I gotta feel
I don't know who I am if I am not real
I don't know who I am if I ain't going real
I don't even know what I wanna be, real
Like
Just getting sh** off my mind
Like I know this my time
And I know that I'm right
I don't want her to be mad
I don't want her to be mad
Of course I'm sad
I miss my dad
My friend will get that
Inside joke
And this like headache
I don't know what I'm saying
I get rosé
Like
Blasé
Wasé
Motherf**er wanna go in like Rasé