TYLR - Summer Sun lyrics

[Produced by TYLR] I've been feeling So monotonous In this world We're never anonymous They see my thoughts They're disgusted in me They're discussing me They wanna lock me away I wanna be far away They tried to k** me, I swear I write but the words won't come out I'm right here but they don't see me, wow I think I'm stuck in a TV show Cause the cruel irony, I can see I tried to iron my face I tried to take a chemical bullet They stopped me but they wished they hadn't Full of self-loathing and hate I'm boring I'm broken A record that keeps on going A record that keeps showing its cracks To the world I'm boring That's why they all left This subject matter's repetitive Why can't you get dressed? Why can't you get out of that bed? Why can't you get better? This sh**'s all in your head Attention disorder It's probably just boredom Then explain the voices (Then explain the voices) My therapist thinks I'm crazy My therapist f**ing hates me She told me to leave I left I shouldn't have I'm depressed I sent out a distress call UFO came Had a strange message Handed me some pot and rolling papers Told me Smoke this And you'll get better Then I got better Then I got worse Wrote a song about it Then I lost it I mean I lost it I went crazy My sh**'s everywhere Why the f** you hate me Why the f** you love me My mind is breaking Heart is breaking Can't take this no more Everyone I love Just wants to go off And do their own sh** Someone think of me man I just want some love, sh** (I just want some love, sh**) I'm so selfish I'm so helpless History will forget me And everyone will forget me Then they'll be happy (f**) I miss him But man it's way too stressful To keep thinking About it I sent him a message He read it He didn't reply Story of my f**ing life Way too sad to cry I think I'm gonna die (I think I'm gonna die, hey) Yeah [Freestyle] So, like I try my best And everywhere I go, like I'm too stressed Cause, I don't know who I am anymore See I made a mixtape Didn't feel great Everything about my life is just so sh** Right Now I don't know why I'm gonna fly now I don't know how I'm so high now Tryna channel my emotions So I can be the best They don't want me They gave me some tests They don't work Like I don't know where I'm going with this Where am I heading Motherf**er, I just settle with it This life is so crazy I think they all hate me I think that I hate me But I don't understand Sometimes I think I'm a split personality Cause one time I'm- One One minute I'm depressed Another minute I'm manic I don't even know what I'm doing I'm like I tried to listen to Illmatic I didn't get it Maybe I'm not that smart I got a headache Maybe I'm not that great I gotta said it Maybe I just gotta say my truths Maybe I just gotta tell you what I gotta feel I don't know who I am if I am not real I don't know who I am if I ain't going real I don't even know what I wanna be, real Like Just getting sh** off my mind Like I know this my time And I know that I'm right I don't want her to be mad I don't want her to be mad Of course I'm sad I miss my dad My friend will get that Inside joke And this like headache I don't know what I'm saying I get rosé Like Blasé Wasé Motherf**er wanna go in like Rasé