[intro]
yeah, I don't know where to start
how do you admit that you're falling apart
i mean how will i admit that I'm falling apart
my mother's gonna worry but I'm fine in my heart
[verse 1]
I've lived the words that I've said
and I live with a voice that tends to tell me that I'm sh** in my head
well maybe I should f** it and be happy instead
I should just say f** it and be happy instead, right? right
[verse 2]
'cos there's a lot of people try to tell me how to deal with myself
but I'm not gonna listen if you mention my health
I don't care
don't tell me and don't text me
'Cos that kind of sh** upsets me, just kind of affects me
[pre-hook]
it's bringing me down, and I'm not gonna lie
these days I prefer to just not be outside
and these days I just end up spending all of my time
with my girlfriend, but to be honest, I think that's alright
[hook]
'cos time keeps rollin' and I'm just makin' songs
I'm doing my best
Still find myself stressed
and I'm no longer sure where i belong
I'm starting rust
don't know who to trust
(don't trust anyone. Not even me.)
[verse 3]
some people concentrate on style too much
but I think I just force myself to smile too much
and I should zoom in for the best
I wanna live my life with no stress
love life and feel blessed, like,
it's kind of funny on the inside
I'm tryin' to be a man, but really I'm just a little child, sh**
and thats pretty much it
Yeah thats pretty much it
(Is there anything else?)
oh yeah
my jaw hurts a lot because I grind it with stress (mhm?)
I was an idiot recently and lost a lot of my friends (naw)
nothing brings me joy and nothing makes me smile
being at school makes me aware of how I haven't been myself in awhile (oh)
and I wonder what it was like to be 11
wonder if there's such a thing as life after d**h, such a thing as heaven (why?)
every now and then I think about the fact that i'd become a legend if I died at 27