I've thrown myself in this shallow grave. Disconnected from everything. Day after day feeling beaten and worn. Forever trapped in this dark hole. And on the day that I die. I'll beg you not to cry. I'll feel alive for the first time. And when they put me in the ground. I'll beg you not to frown. This is where I need to be. And to my friends and my family. I'm sorry that I could never be. The friend and the son you expected of me. I tried so hard to be perfect, but in the end it was never worth it. So now I'm saying goodbye. And on the day that I die. I'll beg you not to cry. I'll feel alive for the first time. And when they put me in the ground. I'll beg you not to frown. This is where I need to be. Six feet under. I've never felt such comfort. This is where I need to be