Verse:
(AmPm)
Woke up this morning and I thought about calling you
I almost did the remembered our last argument
I don't understand how you yelling about how you feel
But just restating what someone else said is the deal
People push their values on you, try to call them norms
My reality is not yours, only my own
I know I'm bad with call and text my phone
Personal sh** not social meda at all
I put it all in these songs
You put it all in your posts
You prolly should write a blog
I'm writing used to be home
You don't like your father
I don't like your father figure
He never liked me either
I'm sure his shoulder shivers
Cold shoulder to the lover of his young apprentice
But [I] fear no one and nothing but God really
Ironic cuz I don't believe in organized religion
And that's another issue to you because you're a christian
Hook:
(Eshai)
Sometimes I just feel like I'm in this by myself
You don't understand we can't get over out differences
Even though you love me you're in need of someone else
It's draining and I'm giving you all I got left
Verse:
(AmPm)
You mad cuz I said we should get off of the phone
Because I don't like the direction this conversation is going in
I say we should hang up before I say something I'll regret
You tell me "go ahead and say it" trying to get in my head
Is it my career? or just us as people?
These are the things that have you up late thinking
Everybody loves in different languages
Everyone don't give and receive in the same way and sh**
Some can't love their bae the way that they wanna be loved
But try to fix it just not to be alone in this world
This ain't the 13 colonies I ain't tryna settle
But second guess myself thinking you tryna make me better
Matter of fact you ain't want me to call in the first place
You blowing me like I'm candles and it's your birthday
How you gon answer saying can we just text
Then when the convo over start acting like a brat
Hook
Verse:
(AmPm)
Always expected I would end up alone
And truthfully still expect that I may end up alone
Live by my rules and no one cracking the code
The creed rarely amended
And everyone gets offended
Apologies rarely given
Just because you don't understand me
Covenant blood thick as womb water
Who really family?
Cold hearted facts vomit out my mouth so casually
That you think I don't care like some foster families
I'm not a bad person, or maybe I am
Who decides good or bad or anything else?
If you're right but everyone says otherwise
Who's to say you won't give in and turn into the other guys
I know what it's like
To know when you're right
But everyone refuses to understand your plight
So when you fight
It's like punching a padded wall
It's like cars opposite of when gas is full
Meaning you're getting nowhere
Like chris brown and jordan sparks you got no air
Too much regrets not living by my rules
Not follow ing my gut, not using all my tools
Hook