Paul Cabbin - Draining lyrics

Verse: (AmPm) Woke up this morning and I thought about calling you I almost did the remembered our last argument I don't understand how you yelling about how you feel But just restating what someone else said is the deal People push their values on you, try to call them norms My reality is not yours, only my own I know I'm bad with call and text my phone Personal sh** not social meda at all I put it all in these songs You put it all in your posts You prolly should write a blog I'm writing used to be home You don't like your father I don't like your father figure He never liked me either I'm sure his shoulder shivers Cold shoulder to the lover of his young apprentice But [I] fear no one and nothing but God really Ironic cuz I don't believe in organized religion And that's another issue to you because you're a christian Hook: (Eshai) Sometimes I just feel like I'm in this by myself You don't understand we can't get over out differences Even though you love me you're in need of someone else It's draining and I'm giving you all I got left Verse: (AmPm) You mad cuz I said we should get off of the phone Because I don't like the direction this conversation is going in I say we should hang up before I say something I'll regret You tell me "go ahead and say it" trying to get in my head Is it my career? or just us as people? These are the things that have you up late thinking Everybody loves in different languages Everyone don't give and receive in the same way and sh** Some can't love their bae the way that they wanna be loved But try to fix it just not to be alone in this world This ain't the 13 colonies I ain't tryna settle But second guess myself thinking you tryna make me better Matter of fact you ain't want me to call in the first place You blowing me like I'm candles and it's your birthday How you gon answer saying can we just text Then when the convo over start acting like a brat Hook Verse: (AmPm) Always expected I would end up alone And truthfully still expect that I may end up alone Live by my rules and no one cracking the code The creed rarely amended And everyone gets offended Apologies rarely given Just because you don't understand me Covenant blood thick as womb water Who really family? Cold hearted facts vomit out my mouth so casually That you think I don't care like some foster families I'm not a bad person, or maybe I am Who decides good or bad or anything else? If you're right but everyone says otherwise Who's to say you won't give in and turn into the other guys I know what it's like To know when you're right But everyone refuses to understand your plight So when you fight It's like punching a padded wall It's like cars opposite of when gas is full Meaning you're getting nowhere Like chris brown and jordan sparks you got no air Too much regrets not living by my rules Not follow ing my gut, not using all my tools Hook