Evolutionary decay
The eggs for guilt and shame have been laid
In this shambling mess that is me
Look me in my eyes and tell me why
My feeble attempts to make it right
Fly in my face and purge my eyes
I'm broken, distant, dead inside
I can't even pour my heart out;
I just want to hide
A God? He isn't there for me
With no choice, I give to heresy
The menial metronome of my
Existence constitutes my fall
Cascading down this endless pit
Losing content bit by bit
Making stories just to shift the blame
I want to give up, but I just keep on playing this game
Relief is on the way, or so they say
Forced into submission by "tomorrow's a new day"
I knew that it'd fall right from the start
Yesterday's pessimism is expectation today
You all knew me better that I did
But stopped and stared when the cries rung out from my lips
Now I'm all alone, and it's my fault
I can't help it;
I just want to die
Come into the ring,
Come see my filthy ways
Every smile stings,
'Cuz they're tainted, forced and fake
I'm not who I seem,
I died a distant while back
Think of never-ending famine, but
I'm more deprived than that
Forevermore, I ride this carousel