Nugatory Hope - The Dead End lyrics

Evolutionary decay The eggs for guilt and shame have been laid In this shambling mess that is me Look me in my eyes and tell me why My feeble attempts to make it right Fly in my face and purge my eyes I'm broken, distant, dead inside I can't even pour my heart out; I just want to hide A God? He isn't there for me With no choice, I give to heresy The menial metronome of my Existence constitutes my fall Cascading down this endless pit Losing content bit by bit Making stories just to shift the blame I want to give up, but I just keep on playing this game Relief is on the way, or so they say Forced into submission by "tomorrow's a new day" I knew that it'd fall right from the start Yesterday's pessimism is expectation today You all knew me better that I did But stopped and stared when the cries rung out from my lips Now I'm all alone, and it's my fault I can't help it; I just want to die Come into the ring, Come see my filthy ways Every smile stings, 'Cuz they're tainted, forced and fake I'm not who I seem, I died a distant while back Think of never-ending famine, but I'm more deprived than that Forevermore, I ride this carousel