[Intro]
Loaded choppa
Missing papa
Sleeping pills mixed with vodka
If I die young, I luv u mama
We just living life with no drama
[Verse 1]
Loaded choppa
Missing papa
Sleeping pills mixed with vodka
If I die young, I luv u mama
We just living life with no drama
I pray to god we can beat the odds
I do drugz me and a junkie two peas of a pod
But we different I guess there's a difference
Cause I'm high functioning like keep punching him
Stomachs rumbling critics mumbling
Losing it is troubling so I keep hustling
Arkansas asylum is where I stay don't be frightened
Weed may slow you down but my senses have heightened
Shine like a diamond is so cliche
Keep the hate I gotta special way to repay
Fast forward my life then look back on the replay
When I was stressed never thought I would see this day
Right now I'm trapped inside my mind why am I this way
They can't figure me out its like I'm a maze
To understand me it would take 6,570 days
Doctor do you have the time
Hold that thought while I roll this dime
God forgive me while I do this crime
Pablo Escobar in his prime
That's me, casualty , I pa**ionately
Get rid of these demons rebuke them from me
I walk on the hearts of past lovers
So many fish got caught in my covers
And their hurt was the only thing I recovered
And their pain I discovered now I suffer
My heart got broke so now I'm tougher
I'm just tryna stay a float not go under
[Bridge]
The life of water
My life is shorter
Not one supporter
Drugz help me and sometimes they mind alter
[Refrain]
Loaded choppa
Missing papa
Sleeping pills mixed with vodka
If I die young, I luv u mama
We just living life with no drama
[Hook]
Locked inside my brain and you just missed the train
Of my thoughts so when I talk I hope you feel my pain
I'm tryna break out this jail and climb out of hell like Bane
I only cry when in the shower all my feelings going down the drain
And when it rains I feel it more than ever
When Ima see success what if it's never
[Verse 2]
I feel like I'm being stepped on by King Kong , after I swallowed a bomb
My dad was never there, and where the f** is my mom
Bitvhes ain't sh** but Molly makes me happy
b**hes ain't sh** but Mary makes me happy
Other times I'm feeling crappy, like manure or sh** in the sewer
Noose of life's struggles chokin me I can't get any bluer
Problem after problem they don't get no fewer
I graduated high school it's like I'm a loser
I'm at the bottom of the bottom, daddy should of used condom
Drugz help me play dead like a fiended out possum
Trapping ain't working, this rapping ain't working
A job isn't enough but one thing is certain
The stress of being the best is one of the worst burdens
I talk about the drugz they fix my face just like a surgeon
Other than that yeah I never smile
When they look in my eyes do they see I'm still that child
From the projects with the mental defects
That I got from my dad I think it's time to confess
[Refrain]
Loaded choppa
Missing papa
Sleeping pills mixed with vodka
If I die young, I luv u mama
We just living life with no drama