I'll punish myself for neglecting
To pray at your temple today
And question the world
For neglecting to show me your face
The way it often does
No matter how far i stray
The way i still feel your touch
Even f**ing the shame away
You are my everything
That i can't see and say
You are my everything
In between cla**es and pay
You are my everything
In the window during the day
Because youre nothing at all except
Old texts and pain
Youre nothing at all except
Broken bones in the rain
Youre nothing at all except
Keystrokes and fake choking
When deep throating that started off
Real but you told me to keep going
Cos you like the sound of the k**
I'll punish myself for imagining
Someone else
But only because
It reminds of how it was
I liked how close that you watched
Because when you were above
I got to watch you just the
Same way sunk in your claws
I miss the way that you
Used to draw blood
I miss the way that you
Took your watch off
I miss the way that you
Sound when you cum
I miss getting to
Keep you away from
Anyone else but no one in
Particular usually
Just anyone not me
I just needed you in my
Posession the way i
Was in yours
Like everything else you wore
Incredulous and abhorrant
Insidious but allurring
Re-occurring broken and boring
Downloading torrents of things to do
I could listen to all your
Favorite music
And watch your favorite movies
But i don't want them to mean
Anything at all to me
I couldn't be
The only thing youd need
The only reason i bleed
The worst poison to me
The worst reason to bleed
Youre just poison to me
You are my everything
That i can't see and say
You are my everything
In between cla**es and pay
You are my everything
In the window during the day
Because youre nothing at all except
Old texts and pain
Youre nothing at all except
Broken bones in the rain
Youre nothing at all except
Keystrokes and fake choking
When deep throating that started off
Real but you told me to keep going
Cos you like the sound of the k**