The battale of my heart is the battle of my
Mind
the battale of my heart is the battle
of my mind the battale of my heart
is the battale of my mind every day
I try so hard to hold all my pain
I try so hard not to show how bad
im hurting everyone always
throughing rocks and what ever
else they can find boys always
trying to get me in a relationship
girls always telling me I need a man
in my life to be happy but thats not
true I have God right by my side he
is all I need to be happy everyone
always playing there sick twisted
games refuzing to see what there
doing to me refuzing to realize that
hurting people just case there
hurting is pointless the battle of
my heart is the battle of my mind I
can't do anything or give you
everything you want because I
rather focuse on my relationship
with my Savior and my Hevenly
Father but all this nagging asking
me for money you know I dont have
I just couldn't put up with it
anymore that now the battle of my
heart is the battale of my mind the
battale of my mind is the battale
of my heart and it just grows inside
every day every time you just put
me through hell all the time you
know im starting to get even
worse because people always twist
my words around and always
calling the plioce just case they
can't come tell me what there so
dam worried about always those
who are f**ing watching me you
won't ever fully understand me and
whey I do what I do im tired of
people who can't make up there
dam mind of all people who want
me to do everything for them just
case there too lazy to do it them
selves with that said the battale of
my heart is the battle of my mind
the battale of my heart is the
battale of my mind to tell me I dont
have a reason to live and to k** my
self you have no ida how manny
times I tried and couldn't but I was
hurting weather you saw it or not
weather you belive it or not I was
hurting and you know I blame
myself for what yall did to me
and for what you all said to me
I still till this day ask myself what
did I do or say to you for you to
treat me this way just can't take it
anymore and now this is what its
all come down to the battale of
my heart is the battale of my mind
the battale of my heart is the
battale of my mind the battale of
my heart is the battale of my mind
when I try to make things work
when I try to over come evil with
good I get burnd, hurt, scared and
shattered I ran out of hope, love
peace, faith and so much more its
unbeliveable and sad as well as
disapointing but hey whey should
that matter to any of you at all for
any reason you wonder whey I lost
all trust for people whey I hate
people so much but still try to love
them anyway well take a look at
my life put your self in every
postion every angle every aspect
every decision from small to big
than tell me if you can see it now
and belive me when I say that the
battale of my heart is the battale
of my mind the battale of my heart
is the battale of my mind you know
I can only do so much at once and
work hard to hould back from doing
or saying anything I may regret
later on in life you say its pointless
to care what anyone else says
thinks or dose to someone I think
its out radegous, sad, disapointing
and unbeliveable to say that
because your basicly saying you
dont care if that person lives or
dies and if they k**ed themselves
you wouldn't care tell you find out
the reason they k**ed themselves
you to begin with see now whey I
said the battale of my heart is the
battale of my mind the battale of
my heart is the battale of my mind
it never ends case you never leave
me alone you always bring up what
I went through in the past than you
wonder whey I never let go whey I
never forget about it all see yall
make up one theroy after anouther
refuzing to listin to my story you
dont want to hear a word from me
but than when I dont use my voice
you wonder whey you hit me when
you dont get what you want you
think its funny and a game until
something goes wrong and you
think what just happend what did
I do and you look for ways to blame
someone else for something you did
yall do everything to pretend
nouthings wrong and move on with
your life but you can't now your
inside my mind and can't escape
now you can see that the battale of
my heart is the battale of my mind
the battale of my heart is the
battale of my mind theres no way
around it no way to avoid it no
matter how bad you wish you
could theres no turning back
because the battale of my heart is
the battale of mind the battale of
my heart is the battale of my mind
THIS SONG WAS WRITTEN BY
NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE
17 TYPED BY NATALIE MARIE
HOWELL AGE 18