Natalie Marie Howell - The battale of my heart is the battale of my mind lyrics

The battale of my heart is the battle of my Mind the battale of my heart is the battle of my mind the battale of my heart is the battale of my mind every day I try so hard to hold all my pain I try so hard not to show how bad im hurting everyone always throughing rocks and what ever else they can find boys always trying to get me in a relationship girls always telling me I need a man in my life to be happy but thats not true I have God right by my side he is all I need to be happy everyone always playing there sick twisted games refuzing to see what there doing to me refuzing to realize that hurting people just case there hurting is pointless the battle of my heart is the battle of my mind I can't do anything or give you everything you want because I rather focuse on my relationship with my Savior and my Hevenly Father but all this nagging asking me for money you know I dont have I just couldn't put up with it anymore that now the battle of my heart is the battale of my mind the battale of my mind is the battale of my heart and it just grows inside every day every time you just put me through hell all the time you know im starting to get even worse because people always twist my words around and always calling the plioce just case they can't come tell me what there so dam worried about always those who are f**ing watching me you won't ever fully understand me and whey I do what I do im tired of people who can't make up there dam mind of all people who want me to do everything for them just case there too lazy to do it them selves with that said the battale of my heart is the battle of my mind the battale of my heart is the battale of my mind to tell me I dont have a reason to live and to k** my self you have no ida how manny times I tried and couldn't but I was hurting weather you saw it or not weather you belive it or not I was hurting and you know I blame myself for what yall did to me and for what you all said to me I still till this day ask myself what did I do or say to you for you to treat me this way just can't take it anymore and now this is what its all come down to the battale of my heart is the battale of my mind the battale of my heart is the battale of my mind the battale of my heart is the battale of my mind when I try to make things work when I try to over come evil with good I get burnd, hurt, scared and shattered I ran out of hope, love peace, faith and so much more its unbeliveable and sad as well as disapointing but hey whey should that matter to any of you at all for any reason you wonder whey I lost all trust for people whey I hate people so much but still try to love them anyway well take a look at my life put your self in every postion every angle every aspect every decision from small to big than tell me if you can see it now and belive me when I say that the battale of my heart is the battale of my mind the battale of my heart is the battale of my mind you know I can only do so much at once and work hard to hould back from doing or saying anything I may regret later on in life you say its pointless to care what anyone else says thinks or dose to someone I think its out radegous, sad, disapointing and unbeliveable to say that because your basicly saying you dont care if that person lives or dies and if they k**ed themselves you wouldn't care tell you find out the reason they k**ed themselves you to begin with see now whey I said the battale of my heart is the battale of my mind the battale of my heart is the battale of my mind it never ends case you never leave me alone you always bring up what I went through in the past than you wonder whey I never let go whey I never forget about it all see yall make up one theroy after anouther refuzing to listin to my story you dont want to hear a word from me but than when I dont use my voice you wonder whey you hit me when you dont get what you want you think its funny and a game until something goes wrong and you think what just happend what did I do and you look for ways to blame someone else for something you did yall do everything to pretend nouthings wrong and move on with your life but you can't now your inside my mind and can't escape now you can see that the battale of my heart is the battale of my mind the battale of my heart is the battale of my mind theres no way around it no way to avoid it no matter how bad you wish you could theres no turning back because the battale of my heart is the battale of mind the battale of my heart is the battale of my mind THIS SONG WAS WRITTEN BY NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE 17 TYPED BY NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE 18