I will always blame myself 4 everything
for so long I tried to hold everything
inside all the pain and lies I been
crosswired so many times that I dont
know what is real and whats not I
wonder if there is anything im good
at at all but right now the only thing
I cant stop thinking about is the 3 of
you Chrelle, Korrey and Fayth you
know I care for all 3 of you and thats
never gonna change I am sorry I lied
to you abut going to furs I shouldnt
have done that and im sorry but
please belive me when I said I wasnt
ignoring you at all whey would I
when you called me my radio was
playing and it didint turn off when
you called so I had a hard time
hearing you so I tried to turn my
radio off but in order to do that I
had to trun my phone off yet you just
kept calling and calling thinking I
was ignoring you when I wasnt now
because of me our frindship might be
over and still have this lump in my
throught of crying and screaming till
my head blew off or till I fall asleep
and hope I dont wake up we grew up
togather and till now where falling
apart I rember getting draged into
every battale between you and
Marissa I wanted to find a way where
you all could just get along and
accept each outher for who you are
but as you can see that just blew up
and some how I always mange to
blame myself case thats what I do
when something anything goes wrong
I find a way to blame myself im sorry
lying to you about furs I shouldnt
have I tried so hard to keep so manny
secrets I got so cross wired I messed
up and now where falling apart
Cherelle rember how you asked me
if I thought you would make a great
mouther and I said yes I still belive
you you can and will make a great
mouther just hang in there dont give
up Korrey I know your not stupid I
never thought you where I said what I
said because im still having to keep
secrets between all of you weather
you see it or not I tried to keep us all
togather but all I did was tear us
apart now where all just falling apart
at least I am I still care about Fayth
as if she was my own always have
always will and Cherelle I know you
where worried about having anouther
misscarrige and when you told me
about the ones you had befor and
that if you where to have anouther
misscarrige you could go to jail for
child indangerment so I asked God
to give this child to you I hear your
pregant again and might have a boy
I just hope youll be ok that whats
ganna happen now im not sure I just
want to know this is our frindship
over for good do you want to talk to
me or will you shut me out of your
life either way right now and till the
day I die I will always blame myself
for everything that goes wrong I will
always blame myself for everything
I will always blame myself for every
thing that goes wrong
THIS SONG WAS WRITTEN BY
NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE 18
TYPED BY NATALIE MARIE
HOWELL AGE 18