While youre awake not sleeping
I'm awake too constantly eat and feeding
When you think im gone, im far from fleeing
I'm seeping into your life and every proceeding
Swing and sway from the scaffolding
Rope rappel from the rafters
In your sleep you hear condescending comments and laughter
Those dreams you're after are shattered
At least while in your own head
Producing those uneasy thoughts
Making you question your life and check you intentions
Move like arachnids in the dark of night
Do you want happiness or d**
You could soak yourself in both, comatose
Whatever sinks your capsized boat
Beat yourself up for past lumps
Lodged with a lump in your throat
Unless by nature it's negative
View the negative and violent visions that flood your brain
Make you feel like a monster with malevolent intent
Even though you cringe at the thought of hurting someone physically
Are these dreams evil mirages submerging your psyche, stealing its innocence
Its like telling you to breathe in liquid, why are they so vivid
Like a pint of poison coursing through incisions, it can break you down
Bogged down by bad dreams, and earth shattering screams
Why is this, what makes this all happen
Odd fascination with s** and power
Why do they seem so important, and why are the linked
Thirst for both in an unsafe manner at times
Is it something valuable, is it tied in with self worth
Do I want to beat someone to the punch, so I never hurt
What ever it is, I don't f**ing like feelings like it
Suspend it from the ceiling, swing on it like a heavy bag
That's what bugs me, that's what it embodies
The only thing I'll k** is the recluse