Before I looked to you as something I adored
An inch out of my reach beyond my form
You were an object to me, you held my gaze
The person I was once has me amazed
So in my head I whispered words, empty now
Not yours, not ever, no way, no how
I do believe yes, looking back
That you have always, always, known
Yes, I wanted of you
Yes, I longed to touch you
Yes, I slept drained of you
Yes, I never had you
Yes, I've grown beyond you
Yes, I've gone and lived without you
Yes, I've thought about you
Yes, I've learned to hate you
Now, I realize you
Now, I stand above you
Now, I can despise you
And all others like you
Once, I would have loved you
Done anything for you
Held, touched, cared, forever f**ed you
Now the thought makes me abhor you
You've done nothing for me
Tears were never shed for me
Still I know you knew it silently took more of me
You'll never touch me
You'll never taste me
No matter how you want me
You mean nothing to me
I see red and taste your smile
Bile-like spitting choked defiled
Memories now so maddening, innocent, embarra**ing
Now you're nothing and I know
As I look to you below
Is my laughter not enough to show you how extremely you're f**ed up