[Verse 1]
I've been using Hip Hop as a way to heal
But sometimes I have to stop remind myself how to breathe
Cause I can feel my heart drop with every line I write
And then her face pops in my mind and I can't get it out
I can't help but miss her, every waking second
Hope that calling her an abuser won't threaten whatever bond
I feel like we had
Cause I don't know if she lied
Maybe she really loved me, you know
Maybe she'll make it right
Cause she can't just leave me behind
With nothing on my back after blurring the path
Everything I had to give is right there in her arms
And I thought it was forever so I gave her all I had
And because I f**ing love her I don't want her to give it back
No
[Hook]
So please tell me that I'm alright
Please tell me that when I'm crying
It means I'm gon be just fine, please
Please tell me that I'm alright
Please tell me if she was lying
So I can finally be mad, please
Please tell me that I'm alright
Please tell me that I'm praying
That they will honor me back, please
Please tell me that I'm alright, please
Tell me that I'm alright
[Verse 2]
I wish I was a millionaire
So I could fly to DC for the weekend
I wish I knew whether or not she'd cared if I
Showed up at her door;
f** I gotta stop this
I can't do this anymore
Cause I know she was abusive
These thoughts they be intrusive
And I'm scared she gon get defensive
She gon blame me, She gon hate me
And I'm gon leave the conversation
Unable to breathe
And then she gon say I need help cause I'm too sensitive
I need help cause you know that I'm too much to deal with
She said she tired of walking on eggshells around me
I need help, cause she knows that I'm borderline crazy
But truth is, I need help cause she used and threw me
I need help cause she told me she wouldn't abuse me
I need help cause she told me she wouldn't leave me
I need help cause I feel like nobody's ever gonna believe me
[Hook]
So please tell me that I'm alright
Please tell me that when I'm crying
It means I'm gon be just fine, please
Please tell me that I'm alright
Please tell me if she was lying
So I can finally be mad, please
Please tell me that I'm alright
Please tell me that I'm praying
That they will honor me back, please
Please tell me that I'm alright, please
Tell me that I'm alright