[Intro & Instrumental]
[Verse]
You'll see this beat's called in-sight and i'm about to give you some
Insight into the mind I get these lyrics from
When I was little, let's say five
Before my ears were ever blessed by Gangsta or Jay Five
I remember used to hear my dad shout like
A little thing'd go wrong he'd lash out, i'd
Sit in my room with little sis
Thinking this sh**'s gotta stop, I hate hearing it
I got this memory, remember peering in
Think it was summer-time, maybe another time
I loved the summer-time, but not this one
'Cos this one's the first time that I ever saw my mother cry
And I don't think I ever found out why
It weren't a loud-out cry, I think because she knew I was about outside
And she didn't want me to see that she was sad
So I never told her about that time
[Chorus]
This is an insight to my life and how my brain functions
And even with hindsight I wouldn't change nothing
This is an insight to my life and how my brain functions
And even with hindsight I wouldn't change nothing
[Verse]
Skip forward ten years now and sh**'s messed up
Mum's depressed just trying to get up
It's harder than it's ever been before
Probably 'cos the first thing I did when I was up was [?]
But, my mum told me not to do it anymore
But i'd only do it more - Smoking til i'm zoning out until my eyes are sore
And I was immature, and trying to ignore about defining my mind
I was [?] like i'd never had a suicidal thought
Sort of like my future didn't matter anymore
Fed up of feeling like i'm backed against the wall
When the fact is I just wished I was the Max I was before
Admit that I was close to giving up the life I was living
But a vision of my sister got me thinking - stop
I realised that it's time to change
Started putting my thoughts inside a page
[Chorus]
This is an insight to my life and how my brain functions
And even with hindsight I wouldn't change nothing
This is an insight to my life and how my brain functions
And even with hindsight I wouldn't change nothing
[Verse]
Take it forward four years now i'm twenty one
And past is past and i've showed it all to everyone
It's to explain, but this music's like my medicine
Letting go of negatives because now i'm in my element
Never looking back on my past it's not relevant
The second that I do I see my demons, never let 'em in
I see the positives and use it in a kind of way
That everything I saw and did made me who am today
So I never looking back on that now
Like i'm ever backed down, 'cos i'm back on tracks now
Just felt the need to really put the facts out
For an insight to my life and how it panned-out
So, you can take the song and say that I went to deep
But even if you think that, you never really knew me
I'm a mind state, I dare you to try and break it
I got my voice back, I dare you to try and take it
[Outro & Instrumental]
Yes
It's Linguistics and Charlie P
Long time coming, man
Hah