Linguistics - In-sight lyrics

[Intro & Instrumental] [Verse] You'll see this beat's called in-sight and i'm about to give you some Insight into the mind I get these lyrics from When I was little, let's say five Before my ears were ever blessed by Gangsta or Jay Five I remember used to hear my dad shout like A little thing'd go wrong he'd lash out, i'd Sit in my room with little sis Thinking this sh**'s gotta stop, I hate hearing it I got this memory, remember peering in Think it was summer-time, maybe another time I loved the summer-time, but not this one 'Cos this one's the first time that I ever saw my mother cry And I don't think I ever found out why It weren't a loud-out cry, I think because she knew I was about outside And she didn't want me to see that she was sad So I never told her about that time [Chorus] This is an insight to my life and how my brain functions And even with hindsight I wouldn't change nothing This is an insight to my life and how my brain functions And even with hindsight I wouldn't change nothing [Verse] Skip forward ten years now and sh**'s messed up Mum's depressed just trying to get up It's harder than it's ever been before Probably 'cos the first thing I did when I was up was [?] But, my mum told me not to do it anymore But i'd only do it more - Smoking til i'm zoning out until my eyes are sore And I was immature, and trying to ignore about defining my mind I was [?] like i'd never had a suicidal thought Sort of like my future didn't matter anymore Fed up of feeling like i'm backed against the wall When the fact is I just wished I was the Max I was before Admit that I was close to giving up the life I was living But a vision of my sister got me thinking - stop I realised that it's time to change Started putting my thoughts inside a page [Chorus] This is an insight to my life and how my brain functions And even with hindsight I wouldn't change nothing This is an insight to my life and how my brain functions And even with hindsight I wouldn't change nothing [Verse] Take it forward four years now i'm twenty one And past is past and i've showed it all to everyone It's to explain, but this music's like my medicine Letting go of negatives because now i'm in my element Never looking back on my past it's not relevant The second that I do I see my demons, never let 'em in I see the positives and use it in a kind of way That everything I saw and did made me who am today So I never looking back on that now Like i'm ever backed down, 'cos i'm back on tracks now Just felt the need to really put the facts out For an insight to my life and how it panned-out So, you can take the song and say that I went to deep But even if you think that, you never really knew me I'm a mind state, I dare you to try and break it I got my voice back, I dare you to try and take it [Outro & Instrumental] Yes It's Linguistics and Charlie P Long time coming, man Hah