[Hook 1]
Waiting is a game I hate playing
Too many days since February
Swear I've always dreaded this day
Things I shoulda said to her already
[Verse 1]
A job on the east coast, she chase her dreams
Tonight we celebrating, we can always miss her later
The sun sets over Seattle, with the auburn caressing
Surrounded by the blessings but my palms are sweating
Feels like the whole city's happy for her, family and friends
We Made It, We Made It, the page begins to turn again
I'm so f**ing sick of school, cannot wait to graduate
Tonight we celebrate my best friend moving out of state
I snap out of it to the sound of her voice as she grab my wrist
Come and take a shot with me and ya boys, we got this fifth
And as our friends begin to fill the gla**es
I become aware of how f**ing selfish I'm acting
This night is about her, and I'm just in the background
But no one gets it so I don't say nothing around them
Cuz we'll be here in Bellevue, and she'll be out in New York
So I'm just looking forward to her being at my show on tour
[Hook 2]
So here's a toast for you
Ain't no question that you special you gon' go somewhere
And it's off into her dreams, she gon' leave this little town
Mommas happy daddy's proud so we gon' pour a little out
But if it's the last time I see you, I wanted to say
I wanted to say
Congratulations but I think I've always dreaded this day (dreaded this day)
I've always dreaded this day
[Verse 2]
It's dark out now, but I got a moment with her
Stars above, I can be myself and joke with her
She said, "You're such a douchebag, but I love you like that
A man who speaks his mind regardless, that's attractive
I've known you forever, you were always there for me
The first one I told sh** to, being alone is scary"
Now it's my hand in her hand, there's sand in my Sperries
She says they're staring but laughs as if she don't even care and
Her constant disregard for opinions, indifferent disposition
Always made her different, made me love her, made her Janet
“That's probably why we best friends,” or some corny sh**
The words I brewed in my head, I accidentally spilled them
Teeth clinched I hate myself, one of my last chances slipped
She says it goes by quick, we growing up and sh**
Promise me we'll still talk, nothings gonna change right
But lets just do us and give a f** how they feel tonight
[Hook 2]
[Verse 3]
A quarter to midnight and I'm with random b**hes
I'm getting sick of being mister almost kissed her
Then I begin wonder if she missed me
Said it ain't a party without me I wonder if she meant it
Hold my drink random, I will not just let this drown
But if this don't work out I'mma burn it to the ground
Four years in the making, With every step my hearts racing
I gotta say it tonight, there's no way I'mma let this fade
Around the drunk guests, yo where is she? Where she at?
A girl gives me a funny look and then points and laughs
At a pile of blankets that I a**umed she was buried in
Then she blows my high like…like you ain't burning sh**
I see eyes closed, hair in face, lying on the couch
Her friend turns to me and explains that she pa**ed out
She just got a little f**ed up, don't worry, she's okay
Well I'd rather be unconscious than f**ed up and still awake
[Hook 1]
[Verse 4]
I was always good intentions mixed with sh**ty timing
Give her little hints of the truth and hope that she don't find it
f** being second place, my only quest to be the best
I wanna be Janet's favorite rapper, biggest promise yet
And now you know my motivation so it's gonna happen
Between the flights and hotels, the tours and late sessions
New York city got a good one, I can't wait to join her
And maybe one day I'll wake up beside her
Beside her…
[Outtro]
(Screwed)
I'd rather be unconscious than f**ed up and still awake (x4)