People are always there telling me to enjoy my younger years
These motherf**ers don't understand how often I'm in tears
'You think this is hard, wait til you get older' f** off you dicks
How the f** do you know what I feel? Ignorant pricks
It ain't their fault of course, how could they possibly get it?
A kid of 14 years ain't supposed to be hiding the wrists he slit
Self harm and depression ain't standard when you're young like me
It ain't my f**ing fault I'm this way, if it was a choice I wouldn't be
But when life throws this sh** at you it's hard to deal with when you're so young
It f**ed me so hard I went out asking my mate to borrow his gun
I got turned down of course so I fell from a tree instead
Closed my eyes, took a breath, leaned back and I hit my head
I sat up and looked around, everything blurry, thought I was dead
But I barely even f**ing bled
But in the daze that came next, when my eyes were seeing dots of red
I realised if it had worked not even one f**ing tear would be shed
I just wish I was as dead as I feel