[Verse 1: Taran Jaber]
What would it take for my fam
To be proud of me
Everyone doubts me i don't let it bother me
Take all my anger i get up and battle it
Sick in the head so i need to battle me
[Verse 2: Taran Jaber]
Depression controls me i am lost in these pills
Barely got money to pay all my bills
Friends switching up i am just keeping it real
How's that work? how's that feel?
I am chasing my dream
And they called me a joke
Seeing no light at the end of the road
So i finding my peace at the end of the rope
Feeling alone like i walk in the dark
Searching for love but i'm all tore apart
So i burry my pain very deep in my heart
I don't really know how much more i can take
Push to the limit since soon i'll break
And every smile is a smile that i fake
Say i'm going through hell but i am doing ok
Say i'm doing ok and i'm doing alright
I love what i do but isn't a surprise
This music sh** is not what it seems
My friends told me Taran
You're wasting your time
I told them i'm chasing my dreams and
If that makes me stupid
I am glad that i'm dumb
Popping these pills got me feeling so numb
So i pressed up my head to the barrel of a gun
See i know what it's like to just feel all alone
And i look to a sky sending prayers to a god
What's it goin' take "[?]" hearts
[Verse 3: Taran Jaber]
You don't know what i'ts like
What these thoughts in my head
Am i better off alive or am i better of dead?
And the piece that you get
Cause for me to these lines
So i'm taking my piece to an piece of my mind
See i can't really think the last time i smiled
I guess i just haven't been happy for awhile
They say when you die life flash in instant but i lost almost nothing in ambulance and the distant my head was spinning round like the tracks on a vinyl the nurse just check my pulse
Now she's checking my vitals but everything shutdown nowhere left to survival
[Hook: Aundre Myles] x2
Maybe i don't belong here
I feel my end is so near
Being waiting through my own tears
And i wish i'll just so clear
[Verse 4: JayteKz]
Yea suicidal on my f**ing mind
I'm sick and tired and I'm tired trying
How to get this sh** out my head
There's nothing left and i feeling like dying
"[?]" load that nine up say "goodbye"
You know my timeup
Look into my motherf**ing eyes if this really happend would you be surprised
You don't know sh** what i been through
If you judge me well s** a dick dude
Don't know who to trust
Don't know who to vent to
So i pour my heart onto this pencil
Every time my life is over stressful
I just loss myself to wish to "[?]"
To the world of my music if for those who died then imma prove em wrong
Keep that f** sh** far away from me
Homie where were you through all my suffering you were never there
Nobody ever cared now you come around showing love to me homie f** that i don't trust that when the storm came that sh** stroke fast and you did doubt
Who the b**h now
Keeping real you can sit the f** down
Sit the f** down and don't say sh**
Homie can you tell im on the way pissed
I ain't been to sleep for like 5 days
And to tell the truth am i just might break
Im trying my best yo for cry sake
This depression f**ed up my mind state
It's like i'm saying one thing and do another my mind is f**ed up without a rubber
Time is taking and is taking fast
Sometimes i wonder how long
Is this bullsh** gonna last
My heart is broken but there's
No different than broken gla**
I can't repair it cos is so
Hard to ignore the past
And if i crash please don't save me
Let me rest in peace for once
And let the lord take me
Let the lord take me and
If this season nightmare
Please somebody shake me
[Hook: Aundre Myles] x2
Maybe i don't belong here
I feel my end is so near
Being waiting through my own tears
And i wish i'll just so clear