VERSE 01:
My life's a circus, committed sins that can't be reversible
If I died this moment was it purposeful? Was it personal?
Never meant to change this way but please lord convey me
You think I'm anarchical, sins can't be reversible
Know god chose me for a purpose, too change for better or worse
Born sinner, was never meant to die sinner
s**a for myself for thinkin I'd die a winner
Back when I ran in them streets growing up studyin with the senseless
Teachers treated us as if we wasn't as worthless us kids was violent and hopeless
I saw but never focused, 'lead me to college, pointed me right but I was rebellious
Rest in peace to Amaru, I don't know if this my illest sh** ever wrote
But I know this may be my illest verse wrote
Just remind it, then remember it in a mental and study in your rewind it
And know one day that I'd pencil it and rewind this, singing...
HOOK: James Fauntleroy
I died sinner
But I'mma live better than that, swear
You were always where I needed you to be
Whether you were there or not there (I was there)
I just died sinner
But I'll live better than that (better tonight)
If you ain't f**ing with that
I don't care (yeah,yeah,yeah)
VERSE 02:
Yeah, I'm sinkin off this ship
But God help us make this world cause we're climbin out the abyss
I got this life in my grip, I'm holding tight to my fist
I'm screaming: “This life I live is a trip”
He see the tears in my eyes, he sees me linger as I slip
Truth before I told you: “You the only reason why she don't trip and go insane”
I'm crying cause of all the pain
He knew me before this game, never lost me the more I became
I just grew he grew with me, I'm the joke he's the joke with me
I choke you gon choke with me
Life's a gift or a curse, boys go to the hearse
Men seem more diverse by making things worse
Listen here, I'll tell you my biggest fears
You're the only one who I think cares
Don't you ever go expose them
My life is stressin more than you'll ever know
Poems that I never wrote
All the money that I always blow
The sins I've committed that you'll never know
All the times I didn't open the window
I guess prayin a step but I found a prayer for me
Pops came late I was already stuck in my ways
Nothing falls from my mama for days
Sometimes she hate the way I was raised but she loves me either way
Already handed her these house keys with nothing to say
Except
HOOK: James Fauntleroy
I died sinner
But I'mma live better than that, swear
You were always where I needed you to be
Whether you were there or not there (I was there)
I just died sinner
But I'll live better than that (better tonight)
If you ain't f**ing with that
I don't care (yeah,yeah,yeah)
OUTRO:
This sh**s love and desire