[Intro]
[Verse 1]
I was playing Clark Kent on a park bench observin' those pa**in'
Hidden from society behind some dark sungla**es
When a man stepped up, looking grizzled and disturbed
"Can I borrow a dollar for water man it's f**ing hot."
And I said "Sir, why should I give you change to {?}
I'm 40'000 dollars in debt, you're only broken even."
He said: "Son I lost more in a night that you can ever hope to achieve in your entire life
I lost my wife, lost my love, I lost my will to live
I lost my daughter and a son and now I've never seen their kids
And I'm sorry to {} I don't mean you any trouble
But for eight long years I watched my wife's skin bubble
As the cancer made her thin and redder than a setting sun
No matter the treatment it seems like nothing was getting done
She headed from a strong woman into some doctor tell her if she has relatives they better come."
That's when my life took a faithful twist
Jack Daniels placed his kiss on my ungraitful lips
Consumed by the poison till I lost my place to live
In my pursuit of pa** enjoyment I use drinks to chase it with
Now I'm a common bum that no one cares to notice
Lack of morals lack of focus with an outlook labeled "hopeless"
And I rome the city homeless with no shelter from the weather
To tell you the truth, I'm happier now than ever
Sure I panhandle every single meal I eat
But my soul gets fed from stories of the people that I meet
And I keep my hopes high thinking life might take a new turn
Cuz' I learned that living from the past ain't gonna help the future
[Hook 2x]
And my eyes openend wider that day than ever
And I finally saw the fine line between pain and pleasure
And I've never (And I've never) felt quite so exposes
When I noticed the path you chose can change it any moment
[Verse 2]
I was in my dirty diner, you know my usual spot
Trying to fill a page with the beautiful thought
The air was muggy and stale and room was so hot
That I kept wiping my brow to remove all the drops
When a lovely young lady walked right through the door
And I swore I recognized must have met her before
Wearing a sun dress and sandals with an elegant {?}
Pushing a baby stroller, blanket dangling on the floor
Now this girl looked familiar far to young to be a mother
Thought I asked her who's she babysitting flirt and get her number
When she stumbled by with bright eyes and immidiately knew me like
"Oh my god, Lee it's me, Brian's sister Susy."
Now Brian was a kid I used to chill with on occasion
Half black and half asian, mom's on permanent vacation
His paps was always gone steady working two jobs
To busy just tryn' to feed his kids to find a new mom
But movin on!
I said: "Susy how you doing, how you've been
It's been so long since I last saw you, you look different who's the kid"
And she grined as if she held a secret that I needed
And said: "Let me introduce you to my baby daughter Eden."
My heart was beaten, she said: "What like you don't know me?
I was drinking by eleven, snorting blow by fourteen
Made made decisions due the lack of supervision
Including dating older men who f**ed with younger women
I {} lived through pain and heartbreak
But then eating came the last of my quote on quote "mistakes"
And sometimes I hate the fact my {?} of childchood are severed
To tell you the truth, I'm happier now than ever
I was on a downwards [?] headed for an early d**h
But now I hear the meaning in my daughters every breath
And I've left my old ways behind and never minded leaving
Cause I've learned sometimes mistakes are what help you find the meaning
[Hook 2x]