Intuition - Pain and Pleasure lyrics

[Intro] [Verse 1] I was playing Clark Kent on a park bench observin' those pa**in' Hidden from society behind some dark sungla**es When a man stepped up, looking grizzled and disturbed "Can I borrow a dollar for water man it's f**ing hot." And I said "Sir, why should I give you change to {?} I'm 40'000 dollars in debt, you're only broken even." He said: "Son I lost more in a night that you can ever hope to achieve in your entire life I lost my wife, lost my love, I lost my will to live I lost my daughter and a son and now I've never seen their kids And I'm sorry to {} I don't mean you any trouble But for eight long years I watched my wife's skin bubble As the cancer made her thin and redder than a setting sun No matter the treatment it seems like nothing was getting done She headed from a strong woman into some doctor tell her if she has relatives they better come." That's when my life took a faithful twist Jack Daniels placed his kiss on my ungraitful lips Consumed by the poison till I lost my place to live In my pursuit of pa** enjoyment I use drinks to chase it with Now I'm a common bum that no one cares to notice Lack of morals lack of focus with an outlook labeled "hopeless" And I rome the city homeless with no shelter from the weather To tell you the truth, I'm happier now than ever Sure I panhandle every single meal I eat But my soul gets fed from stories of the people that I meet And I keep my hopes high thinking life might take a new turn Cuz' I learned that living from the past ain't gonna help the future [Hook 2x] And my eyes openend wider that day than ever And I finally saw the fine line between pain and pleasure And I've never (And I've never) felt quite so exposes When I noticed the path you chose can change it any moment [Verse 2] I was in my dirty diner, you know my usual spot Trying to fill a page with the beautiful thought The air was muggy and stale and room was so hot That I kept wiping my brow to remove all the drops When a lovely young lady walked right through the door And I swore I recognized must have met her before Wearing a sun dress and sandals with an elegant {?} Pushing a baby stroller, blanket dangling on the floor Now this girl looked familiar far to young to be a mother Thought I asked her who's she babysitting flirt and get her number When she stumbled by with bright eyes and immidiately knew me like "Oh my god, Lee it's me, Brian's sister Susy." Now Brian was a kid I used to chill with on occasion Half black and half asian, mom's on permanent vacation His paps was always gone steady working two jobs To busy just tryn' to feed his kids to find a new mom But movin on! I said: "Susy how you doing, how you've been It's been so long since I last saw you, you look different who's the kid" And she grined as if she held a secret that I needed And said: "Let me introduce you to my baby daughter Eden." My heart was beaten, she said: "What like you don't know me? I was drinking by eleven, snorting blow by fourteen Made made decisions due the lack of supervision Including dating older men who f**ed with younger women I {} lived through pain and heartbreak But then eating came the last of my quote on quote "mistakes" And sometimes I hate the fact my {?} of childchood are severed To tell you the truth, I'm happier now than ever I was on a downwards [?] headed for an early d**h But now I hear the meaning in my daughters every breath And I've left my old ways behind and never minded leaving Cause I've learned sometimes mistakes are what help you find the meaning [Hook 2x]