Fixating on my wounds again
Pulling at my limbs just to see how far I bend
Persuing every detail in my skin
I am self dissection and I cherish every pin
This genocide behind my eyes
Disposes of any piece that threatens to defy
It never rests shedding every useless thing
As I stretch towards complete autonomy
I have forgotten
How it feels
To be clean and
To be just me
I am not lost I
Am just in hiding
To be held by time
And take back my life
I'll push this far enough to see
How to take control over every part of me
I contain everything I need
To know that I'm alive all I have to do is breathe
Alone, safe with the company I keep
Except the needling of thoughts, pushed in way too deep
I fear the ache that finds me in my sleep
I know I can't run faster than the blood black night can creep
Filling me up
Making me whole
Holding me close
Letting me grow. freeing my soul