I'm drowning in questions
You choked up and left them to sink
I was so stupid to think
That i knew how you felt
I'm a f** up, i'm selfish, i'm wrong
I think i knew all along
That you needed my help
And i needed yours too
But three years stand between us
And all i can do
Is disguise my emotions
And drown in the ocean of you
I'm addicted to this shade of blue
And i wonder
How you lived beneath the waves for so long
Pull me under
With every lonely second you've been gone
I'm a ghost here
That doesn't seem to scare me anymore
Is the coast clear
Or will i find your body on the shore
You are my lullaby
You are the tears i cry
You are the reason it's so hard to say goodbye
You are the smoke i breathe
You are the webs i weave
You are the heart i've been hiding beneath my sleeve
You are the words i write
You are my guiding light
You are the silence that keeps me awake at night
You are my teething ring
You are the first of spring
You are the reason it hurts every time i sing
Come home
I'm so alone
I'm trapped underwater
The waves make it harder to breathe
And leave me lifeless beneath
All the dreams that i lost
Now i'm weighing the cost of my spite
I hope i see you tonight
When i lose my perception
To d**h or to sleep
Just to tell your reflection
You're all that i need
But i know you won't hear me
No matter how clearly i speak
The water's vast and the future is bleak