Hazing - Let Alone lyrics

I'm drowning in questions You choked up and left them to sink I was so stupid to think That i knew how you felt I'm a f** up, i'm selfish, i'm wrong I think i knew all along That you needed my help And i needed yours too But three years stand between us And all i can do Is disguise my emotions And drown in the ocean of you I'm addicted to this shade of blue And i wonder How you lived beneath the waves for so long Pull me under With every lonely second you've been gone I'm a ghost here That doesn't seem to scare me anymore Is the coast clear Or will i find your body on the shore You are my lullaby You are the tears i cry You are the reason it's so hard to say goodbye You are the smoke i breathe You are the webs i weave You are the heart i've been hiding beneath my sleeve You are the words i write You are my guiding light You are the silence that keeps me awake at night You are my teething ring You are the first of spring You are the reason it hurts every time i sing Come home I'm so alone I'm trapped underwater The waves make it harder to breathe And leave me lifeless beneath All the dreams that i lost Now i'm weighing the cost of my spite I hope i see you tonight When i lose my perception To d**h or to sleep Just to tell your reflection You're all that i need But i know you won't hear me No matter how clearly i speak The water's vast and the future is bleak