[Verse 1 – Hailey B]
From white to black but my life ain't that bad
I've been through worse, this ain't sh** compared to that
My journal full of madness the pages from my past
They scream at me "Hailey B release us please"
Do we really love each other or we just usin' one another?
I'll be honest not all my intentions are initially meant for others
‘cuz you all reap personal gain from my first chapter of fame
By the way, what is fame and why do we try to achieve it
What is love when it's something we just say but don't actually mean it
It seems that people say it all day but don't ever show it
So live every day to your motherf**in' fullest
Cuz today may be your last day and you won't even know it
I been rockin' black since I was 11
I speak the golden tongue of the devil
And convince you I'm your heaven
Wear my sweater, last name on it cuz u know I'm better
I hate to admit it, but I did it, I fell victim to the crime
Where were not comprehending with our own eyes
We're not lookin' at things in real time
Instead we look through our phone and camera lense
Enjoy the moment, before everything becomes past tense
"hey Hailey pa** this" hey shady ba*tards
Catch this whip yeah
If these walls could talk they'd tell you about the times where I
Thought and contemplated suicide
Where I lost my sh** and screamed so loud
Where I lost my cool and knocked myself the f** out
I was so alone but I got fans now
When I'm on a track and they hear I'm on it
They want it ‘cuz they know I rap faster than sonic
You're on my mind, you still run it
I'm stuck with wanting you for life
And just wanting you for one night
Keep thinking: white
Keep drinking: black
You will now be placed under my hypnosis
You will now begin to think my life is f**in' perfect
You will now begin to f**in' worship
In this day, subtweets are the only way to communicate
I'm sorry but I don't roll that way
If you got something you wanna say we can do it face to face
But I'm a waste of space my mind lost in space
Imma make you regret f**in usin' me
Losin' me, the only thing you're gonna see
Is f**ing OG's smoking young trees
A f**in' young G, Hailey B
Guess what b**h?
I'm rich and I invented Nyx
And your a** still ain't sh**
And you can eat sh**
"she been listening to too much Eminem lately
Said Eminem is synonym for Hailey B
Whatever that means"
"Nyx is too shady" and you are too, baby
You can't see me. John Cena? No, f**ing Hailey Houdini
It's sad that you actually believe me
I didn't know tricking you all could be this easy
Cuz you all see me and think “She must be so happy”
But in reality my thoughts strangle me
Provoke me to say mean things
So understand me when I say stupid things
I'm doing this for me I'm releasing all my demons
The ink in my pen is nearly finished
Enjoy my madness, cuz you'll never be able understand this, my thought process, my hypothesis, you'll never get this. Real sh**. Real sh**, I speak on some real sh**