Hailey B - Chapter One: From White to Black lyrics

[Verse 1 – Hailey B] From white to black but my life ain't that bad I've been through worse, this ain't sh** compared to that My journal full of madness the pages from my past They scream at me "Hailey B release us please" Do we really love each other or we just usin' one another? I'll be honest not all my intentions are initially meant for others ‘cuz you all reap personal gain from my first chapter of fame By the way, what is fame and why do we try to achieve it What is love when it's something we just say but don't actually mean it It seems that people say it all day but don't ever show it So live every day to your motherf**in' fullest Cuz today may be your last day and you won't even know it I been rockin' black since I was 11 I speak the golden tongue of the devil And convince you I'm your heaven Wear my sweater, last name on it cuz u know I'm better I hate to admit it, but I did it, I fell victim to the crime Where were not comprehending with our own eyes We're not lookin' at things in real time Instead we look through our phone and camera lense Enjoy the moment, before everything becomes past tense "hey Hailey pa** this" hey shady ba*tards Catch this whip yeah If these walls could talk they'd tell you about the times where I Thought and contemplated suicide Where I lost my sh** and screamed so loud Where I lost my cool and knocked myself the f** out I was so alone but I got fans now When I'm on a track and they hear I'm on it They want it ‘cuz they know I rap faster than sonic You're on my mind, you still run it I'm stuck with wanting you for life And just wanting you for one night Keep thinking: white Keep drinking: black You will now be placed under my hypnosis You will now begin to think my life is f**in' perfect You will now begin to f**in' worship In this day, subtweets are the only way to communicate I'm sorry but I don't roll that way If you got something you wanna say we can do it face to face But I'm a waste of space my mind lost in space Imma make you regret f**in usin' me Losin' me, the only thing you're gonna see Is f**ing OG's smoking young trees A f**in' young G, Hailey B Guess what b**h? I'm rich and I invented Nyx And your a** still ain't sh** And you can eat sh** "she been listening to too much Eminem lately Said Eminem is synonym for Hailey B Whatever that means" "Nyx is too shady" and you are too, baby You can't see me. John Cena? No, f**ing Hailey Houdini It's sad that you actually believe me I didn't know tricking you all could be this easy Cuz you all see me and think “She must be so happy” But in reality my thoughts strangle me Provoke me to say mean things So understand me when I say stupid things I'm doing this for me I'm releasing all my demons The ink in my pen is nearly finished Enjoy my madness, cuz you'll never be able understand this, my thought process, my hypothesis, you'll never get this. Real sh**. Real sh**, I speak on some real sh**