What's it like to be me?
I don't know but all my demons got me wantin' to leave
Sick & tired of the thoughts hauntin' me in my sleep
Being conscious ain't much better when you live in a dream
It's a constant mind f**, a plethora of disease
Do I crave the agony? Mahogany on my feet
f**in' focus on the lotus just so you can get sleep
I pray to god, but I am him. I guess I'm getting too deep
All my friends live inside of my head
Am I better off alive or am I better off dead?
k**ing every hue of gray in my cerebral cortex
I am a mess I f**ing guess, a downward spiraling vortex
I must confess I thought that I was getting much better
Confusing my depression with the state of the weather
I only feel alright when you & I are together
But now I'm home & my state of mind depends on a sweater
All of my friends, all of my friends live up inside of my head
All of my fears just follow my peers causing this dread
I don't belong, no I don't belong
Cause you thinkin' right & I'm just thinkin' wrong
Polarity sits in the neck of my bong
Climbin' trees just to ease is how i'm staying strong