Somebody stop me ‘fore I jump off of this bridge, man
Someone remind me of how much I love my kids, man
‘Cuz like a camel to a needle eye, it's hard to make it through
But I been doin' what I gotta do to live, man
The give and take is gonna break my heart in two
I been lookin' in the mirror at a face I hardly knew
Feelin' like a different person, or at least a different version
If it seems like I'm beside myself then, hey
It's prob'ly true
I think something in the water made me crazy
It's probably my body, say I'm sorry to my baby
She's too young to understand
Tell my son to be a man
Tell the fam there wasn't none they coulda done to try 'n to save me
Maybe anxiety, depression
I don't know, I'm only guessin'
I don't wanna talk about it, thank you kind
I know i said that i was fine, but i was lyin'
Somebody stop me ‘fore i walk onto the tracks
‘Cuz the world is awful heavy when it falls onto your back
I am Atlas with the globe
And the weight has laid me low
You can ask ‘em what the time is
I think they already know
It's so much I wanna say, but I'm afraid I'll never say it
I was headed for the light but there's no way I'll ever make it
So I drive alone at night, wishing I could disappear
Write a song and then erase it so you wouldn't get to hear
I think something in the water made me crazy
It's probably my body, say I'm sorry to my baby
She's too young to understand
Tell my son to be a man
Hold the family together when I'm gone and they replace me
Maybe anxiety, depression
I don't know, I'm only guessin'
I don't wanna talk about it , thank you kind
I know i said that i was fine, but i was lyin'
I been having inner visons of my cold breath
I been having premonitions of my own d**h
It left me shattered like a natural disaster
Have you ever seen a rapper rip his heart out of his own chest
‘Cuz it was beating faster than it should?
I am battling the stress, I never mastered it for good
Guess my brain is overwhelmed and over working overtime
Over feeling like the future of the world is on the line
And I know that i could end it all if I was so inclined
And my moms would probably miss me
And there's rhymes i need to write
And a thousand thoughts that creep in as I try and sleep at night
I been tearin' up from hearin' stuff that I don't even like
Got me listenin' to sad songs, drinkin' too much
Which is really just to keep my brain from thinkin' too much
I begin to lose touch
See me sleepin' when the sun's out
Or readin' after midnight on my phone until it runs out
The only media I trust is Pa**ion of the Weiss
Keep it to yourself, I wasn't askin' for advice
People love to tell you how to feel about stuff
But they don't give a what about why I don't leave the house much
Can't hide in real life
Gleam in eyes dimmer
DIY spitter with the TMI twitter
If I seem a lot thinner, yeah, I lost my appetite
It's hard to see the light when your life's feelin' casket-like
Somethin' floatin' in the water made me crazy
It's probably my body, say I'm sorry to my baby
She's too young to understand
Tell my son to be a man
Tell the fam there wasn't none they coulda done to try 'n to save me
Maybe anxiety, depression
I don't know I'm only guessin
I don't wanna talk about it , thank you kind
I know i said that I was fine, but I was lyin'
"And he was rich—yes, richer than a king—
And admirably schooled in every grace:
In fine, we thought that he was everything
To make us wish that we were in his place
So on we worked, and waited for the light
And went without the meat, and cursed the bread;
And Richard Cory, one calm summer night
Went home and put a bullet through his head."